argh I am so fucked up. I can never find anyone I like but when I do I go absolutely nuts over them and seriously fuck everything up by being completley obsessive. It happens over and over again.
She wanted to see me this weekend, I tried to arrange something but she never got back to me. I ended up calling her, she didnt answer. She gives me an excuse which I dont know whether to believe and I completley lose it, make her feel awful, then try and take everything back without her replying to me making me seem more and more desperate to a ridiculous point. I cant see how she can see me as anything more than a psycho, but why does she still want to see me. I dont know what to think, and whenever I try and make things better I end up looking like some desperate pathetic thing.
She doesnt need someone like me, she wants someone more stable, and she is way out of my league, but she keeps coming back so I dont know what to think. Ive been messed about so much in the past I cant help but think shes just messing me around too, but she seems so different
But she keeps letting me down and it hurts more and more. But the more I talk to her the more I fall for her and forgive her. But I cant do anything until I hear from her and actually find out what she thinks.
This has been going on for so long, and we've missed tons of things we could have done together, her birthday, my birthday, snow, her competitions, gigs, weekends alone. I dont want to miss the summer too, but if this doesnt happen too she wont have the time for me and it will never happen, whether or not she wants it to
Everyone tells me to leave it and move on, but I cant abandon her if she still needs me. She's too good to give up on and let go
She wanted to see me this weekend, I tried to arrange something but she never got back to me. I ended up calling her, she didnt answer. She gives me an excuse which I dont know whether to believe and I completley lose it, make her feel awful, then try and take everything back without her replying to me making me seem more and more desperate to a ridiculous point. I cant see how she can see me as anything more than a psycho, but why does she still want to see me. I dont know what to think, and whenever I try and make things better I end up looking like some desperate pathetic thing.
She doesnt need someone like me, she wants someone more stable, and she is way out of my league, but she keeps coming back so I dont know what to think. Ive been messed about so much in the past I cant help but think shes just messing me around too, but she seems so different
But she keeps letting me down and it hurts more and more. But the more I talk to her the more I fall for her and forgive her. But I cant do anything until I hear from her and actually find out what she thinks.
This has been going on for so long, and we've missed tons of things we could have done together, her birthday, my birthday, snow, her competitions, gigs, weekends alone. I dont want to miss the summer too, but if this doesnt happen too she wont have the time for me and it will never happen, whether or not she wants it to
Everyone tells me to leave it and move on, but I cant abandon her if she still needs me. She's too good to give up on and let go