As per usual, everything flips around. Im having to be the strong one for my housemate & best friend who's going through a lot of pain. Ive never seen her cry before. I guess I kinda forgot Im not the only one who can get frustrated and upset when you cant figure out what someone else is thinking. Im just used to seeing everyone (and I mean, literaly everyone, work, home, friends etc) being in a happy couple.
As soon as I am distracted though, along came the chance to move things along to the next step with the girl Im chasing, but Im too distracted looking after someone I really care about and make a big mistake. Shes being grown up about it, but I think Ive hurt her. Just hope she understood I was trying to be honest and not hurting her on purpose. But she needs looking after too. If she had let me into her life earlier then I could help, but I can only cuddle one person at a time.
I love you both. You are the only 2 important people in my life.
other misc things going on right now....
+ work, good
+ hair, needs cutting I want to grow it longer, but I cant control it. Im curious, but need to simplify things... (my hair is a metaphor?)
+ birthday, sunday... if it falls apart Im going to be very miserable :S
+ NHS, sucks. I am in agony, my career could easily be fucked if I dont get sorted. Im 21 (almost 22) ffs, hard work & dedication in life only leads to getting screwed over. (though I think that isnt limited to the work context...). I went into A&E and was told they wouldnt even look at me. instead i have to find a GP (no-one accepts new patients) and book an appointment which could take weeks. By then tendans and muscles could easily break.
grr things arent going well, but for once Ive got to be strong for someone else. maybe I need to focus on helping her and forget about my future for a while
As soon as I am distracted though, along came the chance to move things along to the next step with the girl Im chasing, but Im too distracted looking after someone I really care about and make a big mistake. Shes being grown up about it, but I think Ive hurt her. Just hope she understood I was trying to be honest and not hurting her on purpose. But she needs looking after too. If she had let me into her life earlier then I could help, but I can only cuddle one person at a time.
I love you both. You are the only 2 important people in my life.
other misc things going on right now....
+ work, good
+ hair, needs cutting I want to grow it longer, but I cant control it. Im curious, but need to simplify things... (my hair is a metaphor?)
+ birthday, sunday... if it falls apart Im going to be very miserable :S
+ NHS, sucks. I am in agony, my career could easily be fucked if I dont get sorted. Im 21 (almost 22) ffs, hard work & dedication in life only leads to getting screwed over. (though I think that isnt limited to the work context...). I went into A&E and was told they wouldnt even look at me. instead i have to find a GP (no-one accepts new patients) and book an appointment which could take weeks. By then tendans and muscles could easily break.
grr things arent going well, but for once Ive got to be strong for someone else. maybe I need to focus on helping her and forget about my future for a while
niobe:
Happy Birthday!
niobe:
You're welcome!