Hey everyone, time for an update i suppose.
I started a new job on saturday at h&m, it went pretty well and all the people im training with whp are going to the new store are all lovely.
Stuff with my boyfriends really good except im crazy paranoid that its going to go wrong all the time and that he'll fall out of love with me or something.
I have no motivation to do any college stuff at the moment, exams start in just over a month and im not ready for them and cant concentrate at all when i try to revise. I dont think i'll get the grades to go to the uni i want, so il probably have to take a year out next year and do resits.
Finally, Im getting doubtful of my chances of becoming a suicide girl. Every day there are more and more beautiful girls with sets in MR shot by staff photographers with high loved it % and alot of them dont get anywhere. I dont think i have what it takes, and i hardly have any chance becaus so many girls have such great sets going up. I will hopefully be shooting with holley this month, and i may have another one soonish.
I am still waiting for the sets from febuary to be edited, so i suppose i'll see how those do aswell, but im just feeling a bit hopeless!
I started a new job on saturday at h&m, it went pretty well and all the people im training with whp are going to the new store are all lovely.
Stuff with my boyfriends really good except im crazy paranoid that its going to go wrong all the time and that he'll fall out of love with me or something.
I have no motivation to do any college stuff at the moment, exams start in just over a month and im not ready for them and cant concentrate at all when i try to revise. I dont think i'll get the grades to go to the uni i want, so il probably have to take a year out next year and do resits.
Finally, Im getting doubtful of my chances of becoming a suicide girl. Every day there are more and more beautiful girls with sets in MR shot by staff photographers with high loved it % and alot of them dont get anywhere. I dont think i have what it takes, and i hardly have any chance becaus so many girls have such great sets going up. I will hopefully be shooting with holley this month, and i may have another one soonish.
I am still waiting for the sets from febuary to be edited, so i suppose i'll see how those do aswell, but im just feeling a bit hopeless!
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Thanks hun, it's just really hard at the moment because nothing is in place for september and I hate the waiting. It just gives me time to pick holes in everything! x