I've had this account for a while, yet haven't done much with it. Figured I might as well start, at least try and see where it goes.
Things have been going pretty well, least for the past few months than where they were earlier in the year. The end of last year, or beginning of this year, my ex and I were working on our broken relationship.. but always seemed to have been on different pages in it's chapters. Eventually, the moment I was ready to move forward and forget about what happened in the past, it was too late. At first, it was another bad spring to go through. Me being the way I am, I let myself get hurt a second time with the same person. Because of that, it took most of spring and summer to really get over it.
Ah well, though, right? I eventually did start to get over it, preoccupying myself with working a lot of extra hours, going out with friends, and taking advice from a couple coworkers. Basically hate females, hah. Eventually, the ex and I fell out of touch, I started to enjoy more things. A new coworker that started working earlier in year, out of the blue soon after I "gave up" calls me and asks to go out for food and drinks after noticing free time on my work schedule. I never really took notice to her, either because I was too hung up on my ex, or the fact she was my coworker.
We ended up having a great time having sushi and then drinks at a hole in the wall of a bar downtown. Soon after, we ended up talking a whole lot and seeing each other on our days off (Both of us work a lot of hours, especially her). Didn't really think of her as more than that till people started asking about us, and finding out that she would bring me up in conversations a lot.
Sadly, I am too much of a shy person, and tend to.. as my friend Bre once put and victim of, "friend zone" them.. unknowingly because I think it's the other way around and that instead they did that to me. Hah.. Sad, but I laugh about it now.
Took me about a couple months after finding out to build enough huevos, and a few drinks after a night out, to ask her about how she felt about me, us. Unfortunately, it was on my way out and poorly planned. Come to find out, she is out of a bad break up, too, that happened around the same time. Root of it being cause of her work and schooling hours and admitted to not wanting that to happen again, to wanting to wait till he classes were over. In April. I shrugged it off, chuckled and said our good nights and left.
Since then, we've been hanging out more often, calling each other more often when we have time to slip away from work. She invited me to be her date for her moms wedding, and came along with me to my friends wedding reception. Having a lot of fun, and feeling a lot closer. Some days more, or less, than others. Specially on what feels like double dates, or cuddling up for once after a fun and exhausting Halloween party. Maybe the result of alcohol
So, as good as it has been, it's a little confusing and it's been a couple months since I've asked her. Sort of not sure what to make of it, as I would like to be in a relationship. It's not so much the rejection I am worried about, but if it were to cause an awkwardness at work and wouldn't want to ruin a connection with someone. Specially with how nice it can be to get out of the house with someone in the same field of work to unwind that you're comfortable and have fun with.
I don't know if anyone will read this, but if you do and have some advice, can relate, or whatever, let me know! Times like this I wish I wasn't a hopeless romantic.
Anywho, I guess that's that, I'll have to try to do these more!
Things have been going pretty well, least for the past few months than where they were earlier in the year. The end of last year, or beginning of this year, my ex and I were working on our broken relationship.. but always seemed to have been on different pages in it's chapters. Eventually, the moment I was ready to move forward and forget about what happened in the past, it was too late. At first, it was another bad spring to go through. Me being the way I am, I let myself get hurt a second time with the same person. Because of that, it took most of spring and summer to really get over it.
Ah well, though, right? I eventually did start to get over it, preoccupying myself with working a lot of extra hours, going out with friends, and taking advice from a couple coworkers. Basically hate females, hah. Eventually, the ex and I fell out of touch, I started to enjoy more things. A new coworker that started working earlier in year, out of the blue soon after I "gave up" calls me and asks to go out for food and drinks after noticing free time on my work schedule. I never really took notice to her, either because I was too hung up on my ex, or the fact she was my coworker.
We ended up having a great time having sushi and then drinks at a hole in the wall of a bar downtown. Soon after, we ended up talking a whole lot and seeing each other on our days off (Both of us work a lot of hours, especially her). Didn't really think of her as more than that till people started asking about us, and finding out that she would bring me up in conversations a lot.
Sadly, I am too much of a shy person, and tend to.. as my friend Bre once put and victim of, "friend zone" them.. unknowingly because I think it's the other way around and that instead they did that to me. Hah.. Sad, but I laugh about it now.
Took me about a couple months after finding out to build enough huevos, and a few drinks after a night out, to ask her about how she felt about me, us. Unfortunately, it was on my way out and poorly planned. Come to find out, she is out of a bad break up, too, that happened around the same time. Root of it being cause of her work and schooling hours and admitted to not wanting that to happen again, to wanting to wait till he classes were over. In April. I shrugged it off, chuckled and said our good nights and left.
Since then, we've been hanging out more often, calling each other more often when we have time to slip away from work. She invited me to be her date for her moms wedding, and came along with me to my friends wedding reception. Having a lot of fun, and feeling a lot closer. Some days more, or less, than others. Specially on what feels like double dates, or cuddling up for once after a fun and exhausting Halloween party. Maybe the result of alcohol
So, as good as it has been, it's a little confusing and it's been a couple months since I've asked her. Sort of not sure what to make of it, as I would like to be in a relationship. It's not so much the rejection I am worried about, but if it were to cause an awkwardness at work and wouldn't want to ruin a connection with someone. Specially with how nice it can be to get out of the house with someone in the same field of work to unwind that you're comfortable and have fun with.
I don't know if anyone will read this, but if you do and have some advice, can relate, or whatever, let me know! Times like this I wish I wasn't a hopeless romantic.
Anywho, I guess that's that, I'll have to try to do these more!