Depression hits hard again. yay me. oh well, im used to it. just like im used to being alone, dissapointed, and stuck in life. i guess feeling happy or content is just too much to ask for.
chaos. the world revolves around. a god, nothings there. karma, a simple fairytale. love, a childhood lie. nothing here to save you. nothing here to fear. only chaos,...
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chaos. the world revolves around. a god, nothings there. karma, a simple fairytale. love, a childhood lie. nothing here to save you. nothing here to fear. only chaos,...
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hhmmm.... so many things run through my mind at election time. i like to keep track of the race, cuz i like to know where the hell my country is going next. although ignorance truely is bliss, i just have to be informed of every aspect of reality. the educated and consious path is a difficult path to take, but i must take it, yet...
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givememedicine:
eeeee i love your new picture! shaggyness is amazing. 
snarky:
i misses yoooooooou
that new picture =
that new picture =
im so antsy lately. i need to create art. i should probably take advantage of this feeling and finish my damn Requested By Ann: album. only 3 songs left to record and finish up a bit on the writting.
oh and also.... have a look at my cock--->
oh and also.... have a look at my cock--->
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annisa:
Happy New Year
xo
xo
snarky:
haha have a look at your cock.
niceeeeeeeeee
niceeeeeeeeee
ugh, im drunk right now, and i soooo need a girl. i just finished a full bottle of wine, mmmm...... anyways, im so in the mood right now to just snuggle up with a beautiful woman and fall asleep. but here i am, alone again. i mean for the most part im perfectly fine with having music and art as my only purpose in life,...
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strangekitty:
u r so freakin' cute! i could always use a new slave around... don't give me any ideas, heehee.
happy new year
happy new year
lowroller:
I know what you mean....
Hang in there.
Hang in there.
i just though of something i can blog about. so here it is. i was happy for 2 days in a row this week. it was awsome, i was so proud of my brain and my emotions for trying out something new. hehe. but anyways im back to normal now. so i guess im off to sleep now again, or maybe i should do something...
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it was awsome, i was so proud of my brain and my emotions for trying out something new. hehe. but anyways im back to normal now. so i guess im off to sleep now again, or maybe i should do something... Read More
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strangekitty:
you are a freakin' sweetheart!!! thank you. 
yeah, i think i'm going to apply again one of these days... i was already a hopeful once, before they switched the site over to the newer version... when they changed it, they made it so all the old hopefuls had to apply again and i never got around to it. if i do shoot another set, it's gonna be with the photog who did my profile pic (the pool table shot, my fav!). but i think that will be my last attempt.
i'm glad you had a couple happy days, anyway. i'm kinda in a mood today, too. ah well. things change. maybe the rest of the week won't suck so bad.
good luck with your songwriting.
thank you. yeah, i think i'm going to apply again one of these days... i was already a hopeful once, before they switched the site over to the newer version... when they changed it, they made it so all the old hopefuls had to apply again and i never got around to it. if i do shoot another set, it's gonna be with the photog who did my profile pic (the pool table shot, my fav!). but i think that will be my last attempt.
i'm glad you had a couple happy days, anyway. i'm kinda in a mood today, too. ah well. things change. maybe the rest of the week won't suck so bad.
good luck with your songwriting.
_toki_:
Weird how it works sometimes. Being capable of feeling genuinely happy, even if for a day or two, gives a lot of hope that you don't have to feel like shit forever. 
hhmmm.... i dont think anyone reads my blogs. but im fuckin bored so im gunna do some typein. well actually probably not much. nothing is new, still depressed for the most part, been recording lost of songs though so thats been nice. anyways, thats all, and now im bored again.......... ugh, i hate boredom. 
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babymoses:
thanks so much for the comments and showin some love. :]
strangekitty:
saw your comment in my pics, and wanted to say thanks
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ally:
THX for commenting on my set!!
_toki_:
hey there, like the pics
Ahh..... I love suicide girls. Someday i want a suicide girl of my very own.
aluka:
Well, you can have me, even though I'm not a suicide girl.... yet *gets hopes up*
uuhh... ok. i guess i'm supposed to pretend here that im walkin into a room full of a shit-ton of people. so.. "Hey, i'm Mike"
deedee:
Thanks for the comment on my set!!
Stop taking your meds and lets meet in a nuts place hahah
MUAH!!
Stop taking your meds and lets meet in a nuts place hahah
MUAH!!
i have often thought that there was something wrong with me; everyone i cared about either never really saw me, or they left me for another female, or the city. i have slept with monsters, fucked Eros, fell in love with Orpheus. Even if none of them stay, even if they end up leaving me, because all (i think) i'm good for, sometimes, is fucking, i still refuse to give up. i know what i lost to a chemical boy is out there in someone else. He might be the man with calm-before-the-storm eyes and hair that reminds me of Autumn, the one who tells me that he likes my words and plays his music that makes me want him more, or he might be a boy with his cherry cyanide girl who tells him to stop looking for the mermaids in the ocean. In the end, love can't find you if you just run so far ahead of it.
Things will get better. I think in the end we are all essentially alone but sometimes this is better than a lot of the alternatives.
xo