legendarycowboyash:I have been led to believe that I do not posess a heart worthy of solace. I am barely holding it in, barely keeping a promise, but all I can think about at the bottom is seeing it digging deep through my skin.
Why must it be so?
Why can I not find myself.....
If you could see these scars, they are a track record of mistakes.
So much blood. My own. Spilled by my own hand. But is it not enough? Do I need more? Than I will gladly give it to you.
Why cant we just be in love and be happy. Why cant I tell...
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Why can I not find myself.....
If you could see these scars, they are a track record of mistakes.
So much blood. My own. Spilled by my own hand. But is it not enough? Do I need more? Than I will gladly give it to you.
Why cant we just be in love and be happy. Why cant I tell...
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Chicago..... I havent been back in 3 years.
My dads in the hospital. Im going back now, to "make any decisions that need to be made"
Hes my responsibility now.
Phew.....
Ill be back soon, I hope.
My dads in the hospital. Im going back now, to "make any decisions that need to be made"
Hes my responsibility now.
Phew.....
Ill be back soon, I hope.
sen:
If you have any luck with that lost Sasha set could you share the wealth? I'd be willing to trade for some other lost things from here....
witchhunter:
That sucks dude, I know its difficult to have to take care of one's parents.
The world is falling down. But I am ready. I have prepared myself for this. I have feared it, and it was never what I wanted. But I knew it was coming, ive felt it for awhile now. Ive known there was no way to fix it, no way to take back the mistakes Ive made. But now its all falling down, its all coming...
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I was thinking of getting a gun just now, im not sure why. I thought about going through the whole process to get a license and find an automatic of some kind to keep around the house. I dont really need one, but for some reason I suddenly thought of it.
After a minute I thought harder and realized. A gun in the house is...
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After a minute I thought harder and realized. A gun in the house is...
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Self mutilation.
Everybook I find about it has "women" or "girls" in either the title or description.
Does that mean Im a girl?
Everybook I find about it has "women" or "girls" in either the title or description.
Does that mean Im a girl?
karalynn:
Saw the board you started:
You may be interst in the Plus Size Women group. Sets are posted there by SG members in the Pluse size catagory and many have larger than average breasts.
SG Hopefuls also has girls posting sets of various body types. There are more places to see beautiful naked women than just the official Suicide Girls.
Hope this helps you get your wishes met.
You may be interst in the Plus Size Women group. Sets are posted there by SG members in the Pluse size catagory and many have larger than average breasts.
SG Hopefuls also has girls posting sets of various body types. There are more places to see beautiful naked women than just the official Suicide Girls.
Hope this helps you get your wishes met.
erikawithak:
hey you!
I am going to live forever. I am going to become a god some day.
These are things that I believe, honestly, or at least, I do when Im at the top of the spectrum.
Dude Im so fucking bipolar. Its ridiculous.
One minute I hate myself, the next minute I love me more than anything. Ive gotta get my shit straight, I cant stand...
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These are things that I believe, honestly, or at least, I do when Im at the top of the spectrum.
Dude Im so fucking bipolar. Its ridiculous.
One minute I hate myself, the next minute I love me more than anything. Ive gotta get my shit straight, I cant stand...
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snottlebocket:
yeah you really are the ideal person to teach how to use a sword 
tigerpig:
i once got drunk with stabbing westward, or so i found out the next day...
Tonight was really bad. I broke down. I cried for almost an hour, hard uncontrollable sobbing shaking tears mixing with salive crying. I also tend to scream in silence when I get overwhelmed, and believe me I did alot of that. And one other thing that I wont mention directly but simply say that I cant get the damn thing to stop bleeding.
I cant...
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abia:
I am going through the same thing right now. It sucks, but just look at the positive things(even though at times it is really hard to find them) and try to keep yourself occupied. That is what I am doing and it seems to be working. Well I hope you feel better and if you need a friend I am here
[Edited on Jun 13, 2004 10:39AM]
[Edited on Jun 13, 2004 10:39AM]
cureelise:
if u need someone to talk to I'm here and will listen to whatever u have to say w/o judging u. i'm going through some shit myself so having other people to talk to helps.
My god is not your god. My god really does care, my god really does want to help. But I understand, however, that MY god cant always be there for me, he cant baby me through life, he cant hold my hand everytime I have to cross a street.
I died a long time ago. For the longest time I was simply waiting for my...
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I died a long time ago. For the longest time I was simply waiting for my...
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I called my insurances number today to try and find a pychiatrist. I had to tell 2 different people that I "had thoughts of suicide and a desire to harm myself"
I got like 7 numbers for different doctors in the area, and If I didnt have to leave for work soon, Id start calling and try to pick one.
I want to stop being...
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I got like 7 numbers for different doctors in the area, and If I didnt have to leave for work soon, Id start calling and try to pick one.
I want to stop being...
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jmax:
I've always been against "medicating" for things like bipolar disorder and the like, but the more i read on it and see the way family members are on and off...i'm changing my view of it. I know it has to suck feeling that way. I hope you have family that can be support for you. good luck (that is the most retarded thing to say, sorry) i hope you are successful in finding a doctor and get to feeling the way you want.
Last night I sat alone at home getting drunk. Now im no prude or uptight goodie goodie or anything, but Ive never been full on drunk before.
Id have to say I liked it.
I cried alot, because ive got something on my mind thats just driving me crazy, its like an all day panic attack, and I screamed a bit too, just flat out...
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Id have to say I liked it.
I cried alot, because ive got something on my mind thats just driving me crazy, its like an all day panic attack, and I screamed a bit too, just flat out...
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devilsplum:
Thanks, I'll keep it in mind. Memphis is a cool town! Let me see if I can get something local first though. Thanks again! 
get_dead_kid:
thats the best way to deal with problems......
booze and a trash can is all u need
hope it solved the problem
booze and a trash can is all u need
hope it solved the problem
You know alot of the time, when someone does something that seems stupid, or irrational at the time, they dont really mean it. Sometimes they just dont understand why those things are stupid or irrational, and they cant really control their actions because they dont realize that there is anything wrong with them.
How do you explain to a girl that the reason you want...
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t3chmonkey:
Well that's the thing. The only way they can believe you is if they relate. Get it?