rhapsody

i try, i mean really try not to let all these rumors about our relationship get to me...but after the 4 fucking yrs that we were together.... all i fuckin asked for was a day off here and there. u takin this broad on a fuckin cruise after "supposedly" only 4 fuckin months!!!!!!! u r living with her for fuck sakes!!!! but u tell me that my imagination is running away with me. i find out last night from ur partners ex (mind u she's a coke head; but what the fuck does she gain from telling me this random ass shit) that ur sister got married! mind u i KNOW ur parents r from the old country and didnt like me b/c i am black; so i probably wouldnt even had went to the ceremony anyway. but come the fuck on.... after 4 yrs u couldnt even tell me!!!! she got married in sept.; we broke up in sept. u gonna fuckin tell me that ur ass didnt know this info months in advance!!!! bullshit! why would u not tell the women that u were living with that ur fucking sister is getting married????? all i would've said is congratu-fuckin-lations... the one fucking night that i was drunk and pissed off that i call u late... u call me and try to ream me a new ass.... OH! just fuck all the other times that i have called u at 3 or 4am when i thought u were workin the overnight before u had the common courtesy to tell me u were living with a woman. i have tried sooooo hard to be ur friend. but how can u have a friendship based on lies?? i moved here for u. left everything i knew for u. i was hurt when it ended; i admit. but i still wanted u in my life, since i thought we ended on good terms. all this shit is coming out now tho. and u want to know if i see u in the streets if im gonna be all ghetto?????? when have u EVER known me to be ghetto???? u know me better than that... augh! men r the bain of my existence.... they r only good for one thing! i dont think i will ever recover from this one. my heart has been ripped out and stomped on, but im made to feel like i was wrong....... i dont understand; just stay away from me. its better that way...