i feel a bit crazy lately, seems i have been saying that alot...i just have had anxiety for a few days now, and i am sick of this shit....i know my meds are working, because its cut it in about half but i just have felt like shit for like three days now...i dont know what my problem is.
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iyce:
desilou:
don't worry it will get better. trust me on this one. i have to go to the county market and get some stuff for dinner but i will call you tonight as promised. you are a sexy bitch by the way.
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faerie:
aww sweetheart... i wish you didn't feel so bad. it'll get better i promise.
//figlet & semi-dyklet will have to get together and be drunken crazy kids..
heart you. keep your head up. smoochies.
//figlet & semi-dyklet will have to get together and be drunken crazy kids..
heart you. keep your head up. smoochies.
punkinhead:
dude you are YOUNG YOUNG YOUNG and good things will come your way.
Promise!
did you do the pic? its wild
hope all is well,
ph
Promise!
did you do the pic? its wild
hope all is well,
ph
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faerie:
update soon or i'll kick your ass! 
love yous!
love yous!
desilou:
hey thanks for letting me talk. you are such a sweetheart. i wish you were here, i could use you, we could go to target late at night and just chill.
im going fucking crazy...i cant seem to feel content with anything, and i just feel so fucking bummed out today 
i dont know what my fucking prob is, i need someone or something to cheer me up 
i dont know what my fucking prob is, i need someone or something to cheer me up 
sliverz:
Hmm...
Well, when they get around to fixing the photos, I'll post up a picture of me, and make you smile
Um. Something to cheer you up... something to cheer you up... um. I think you're kool? *cough* Alright, that's all I've got.
Well, when they get around to fixing the photos, I'll post up a picture of me, and make you smile
Um. Something to cheer you up... something to cheer you up... um. I think you're kool? *cough* Alright, that's all I've got.i dont know what is with me tonight, but i have the most wild thought tonight, i was like "i wanna try pussy" i dont know why, its just like, i want to be able to say, yes i am gay, but i have tried pussy, hahaha there are just so many self-righous gay bois out there that are like..."ewww, pussy is so fucking disgusting,...
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sliverz:
Yea, you SAY you don't think you could really do anything with a pussy, but I'll tell you right now that you could, and would like it a lot. Women are pretty, and it's nice to look at them when you're having sex. Of course, it wouldn't feel as good as fucking an ass, but it would still be good
Anywho, you should definitely go out and bang some chick once, just so you can say you have Just make sure she's not a friend, cuz that could lead to troubles.
Anywho, you should definitely go out and bang some chick once, just so you can say you have
Just make sure she's not a friend, cuz that could lead to troubles.
desilou:
hey...this is dani speaking through my....well...hootanany
i miss you....your our gay boy...we love you.
come see us (don't make me go there....)
luvwoo
i miss you....your our gay boy...we love you.
come see us (don't make me go there....)
luvwoo
ugh...i dont feel very good today...last night i was suppost to hang out with the boy next door that i am "seeing" and i never heard from him so i was on my patio smoking a cig about 2 in the morning or so, and i could hear him talking with some other guy..and i was like "i wonder who that is". a few minutes...
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so i was on my patio smoking a cig about 2 in the morning or so, and i could hear him talking with some other guy..and i was like "i wonder who that is". a few minutes... Read More
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punkinhead:
What a fucking drag . . . you have had some bad relationship luck, for real.
There might be a bright side - it might have been strange seeing someone who lived so close. This might be a blessing in disguise. A horrible, fucked up disguise but a disguise no less.
anyway, sending you good vibes.
take it light,
ph
There might be a bright side - it might have been strange seeing someone who lived so close. This might be a blessing in disguise. A horrible, fucked up disguise but a disguise no less.
anyway, sending you good vibes.
take it light,
ph
iyce:
hey you
man..i feel bad for you... ...i hope something happens to make you feel better....
man..i feel bad for you...
...i hope something happens to make you feel better....im such a looser, i didnt go to work today AGAIN, i slept untill almost four o'clock.. 
i feel like im not getting much acomplished lately..oh well 
went over to my friends house tonight, and one of our friends came over and we hung out all night, it was nice, i took about five shots of vodka as well as other *cough* things... 
i smoked...
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i feel like im not getting much acomplished lately..oh well went over to my friends house tonight, and one of our friends came over and we hung out all night, it was nice, i took about five shots of vodka as well as other *cough* things... i smoked... Read More
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deviance191x:
totally kno the feeling, love.
-->deviance
-->deviance
sliverz:
heh.
so i went to the doctor for my anxiety and he put me on Effexor XR and Ativan and it seems to be working so far...i dont like being on anything, but if it will stop this fucking shit i will be greatful its been pretty nice out for the past few days, a little too humid for me, the ac queen, but still nice....
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sliverz:
It's more up to date; the other one was taken about 4 weeks ago, and this was taken a couple days ago.
Wow. I just read your journal. Damn, sounds like you're having all the fun I never was able to score. Fucking piece of shit small towns. Anywho... as for being on medication; hey, at least you'll probably feel better more of the time. Anxiety sucks; not like I gotta tell you that, since you already know. heh. Yea, at least it'll help
Wow. I just read your journal. Damn, sounds like you're having all the fun I never was able to score. Fucking piece of shit small towns. Anywho... as for being on medication; hey, at least you'll probably feel better more of the time. Anxiety sucks; not like I gotta tell you that, since you already know. heh. Yea, at least it'll help
iyce:
yay to spreading the love raven!!! 
i'm fuckin baked right now...how about yourself?
i'm fuckin baked right now...how about yourself? 
iyce:
wow..i like hail..but i don't like the damage it can bring
ive had the worst fucking anxiety for the past week and a 1/2 its fucking killing me...im gonna have to suck it up and actually go to the doctor...which has been a hassle in itself. finding someone in this little town. 
i just feel crazy.... by best friend had surgery today, and she is fine, but i was so worried about her.
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its fucking killing me...im gonna have to suck it up and actually go to the doctor...which has been a hassle in itself. finding someone in this little town. i just feel crazy.... by best friend had surgery today, and she is fine, but i was so worried about her.
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iyce:
hey there
sorry to hear about your anxiety...hope all will be well with you...making out on the floor is sexy....i haven't did that in a while..lol
take care
sorry to hear about your anxiety...hope all will be well with you...making out on the floor is sexy....i haven't did that in a while..lol
take care
just when you thought life sucked and you were a looser you finally get the courage to talk to the cute boi next door...and find out....he's so much like me.... we totally hit it off...i talked to him for 2 hours online, and i am suppost to cook him dinner next week when he gets back from going home on break... im so excited, and...
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we totally hit it off...i talked to him for 2 hours online, and i am suppost to cook him dinner next week when he gets back from going home on break... im so excited, and... Read More
"...im not sorry, its human nature, its human nature, and im not sorry, im not your bitch dont hang your shit on me, its human nature...would it feel better if i was a man?...why dont you just deal with it? would you like me better if i was?...im just like you...why should i be..." - madonna
hola suicidegirl land...today was a good day
i thought...
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hola suicidegirl land...today was a good day
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punkinhead:
Good for you dude! I hope it works out.
take it light,
ph
take it light,
ph
punkinhead:
Im a double posting motherfucker motherfucker!!
ph
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ph
[Edited on Apr 24, 2004 3:05PM]