Hey gang! Haven't updated in quite some time so I figured an entry was due. Don't have a lot to say really. At a crossroads in my life, gave up pot so I'd be better equipped to make some important decisions, and am realizing I enjoy sobriety too much to revert to being a tragic stoner.
Family life is ridiculously depressing and frustrating but I'm doing what I can to help. Have made selling the contents of my parent's home that they sold my job for the last month and am, at present, trying to find my father a place to live. He's asked me to move in with him and I'm seriously considering it; man lost my mother, his companion of 45 years to schizophrenia and is tremendously affected by it. I'm spending a lot of time commuting between my place and his and, in truth, can't afford to keep my apartment without taking on a roommate anyways. That said, the idea of living with my Dad at the age of 31 is slightly intimidating; as great of a relationship as we have presently, I'm sure that that's partially due to the fact that we don't cohabitate. Parents can't help but be parents when you live with them in my experience and in so, i'm reluctant to bite the bullet and be his roommate. On the fence and almost every day i swing the opposite direction as the day before about this decision. In truth, I think it'd be selfish of me not to, if only for a year until he's emotionally healed. My parents have generally been good to me and to the extent they've let me down at time, it's not for lack of trying.
So yeah, that's what I'm up to at present. Trying to force my partner to buy me out so I can go to school full time in the fall and finish my degree. Enjoying what sun the sky has to offer and trying to embrace a healthier lifestyle. Slowly but surely I'm pulling my head out of my ass and fulfilling my responsibilities. Thanks for the support and counsel any of you have offered me over the last year. I truly appreciate it! Hope everyone is well! Stay tuned for more frequent and purposeful entries. <3
Family life is ridiculously depressing and frustrating but I'm doing what I can to help. Have made selling the contents of my parent's home that they sold my job for the last month and am, at present, trying to find my father a place to live. He's asked me to move in with him and I'm seriously considering it; man lost my mother, his companion of 45 years to schizophrenia and is tremendously affected by it. I'm spending a lot of time commuting between my place and his and, in truth, can't afford to keep my apartment without taking on a roommate anyways. That said, the idea of living with my Dad at the age of 31 is slightly intimidating; as great of a relationship as we have presently, I'm sure that that's partially due to the fact that we don't cohabitate. Parents can't help but be parents when you live with them in my experience and in so, i'm reluctant to bite the bullet and be his roommate. On the fence and almost every day i swing the opposite direction as the day before about this decision. In truth, I think it'd be selfish of me not to, if only for a year until he's emotionally healed. My parents have generally been good to me and to the extent they've let me down at time, it's not for lack of trying.
So yeah, that's what I'm up to at present. Trying to force my partner to buy me out so I can go to school full time in the fall and finish my degree. Enjoying what sun the sky has to offer and trying to embrace a healthier lifestyle. Slowly but surely I'm pulling my head out of my ass and fulfilling my responsibilities. Thanks for the support and counsel any of you have offered me over the last year. I truly appreciate it! Hope everyone is well! Stay tuned for more frequent and purposeful entries. <3
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helly:
I think you are making a great choice to reside with him, I am sorry about your Mom and I am proud of you for no longer being a tragic stoner xx
orchid:
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