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get ready . here comes the biggest waste of an entry to date:

save me.

i think i might be losing what shread of sanity and peace i possess still.

I NEED MORE BALANCE. my body's like "fuck you. i refuse to work anymore, you bitch."
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strongmad:
*saves pillango* kiss

I thought your new job was going to be fun! Sorry it's not so much. And remember, you only have to be responsible for a few hours a day. Then you can get back to debauchery. smile

If it would help, we could e-mail during the day and I'll entertain you somehow. I have friends who do that for me and it helps.

Hope your illness is nothing serious, sweetie.

kiss
zzshing:
haha, you totally get me, you're awesome! robot
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oh lordy, i've been neglectful. my sincerest applogies (to myself, since no one looks forward to my updates more than i do).

to make things slighly easier (and quicker, since i'm on a tight schedule), headings.

new job vs. old job

well, the pay cut sucks, but this job is soooooo much better than i'm used to. firstly, it's during the day, so i can...
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fernando37:
cool pictures from cuba... EL SUICIDO LOCO
elfalcon:
Youre so sweet... Mother's day pic-nic is such a good idea !! wink

I hope to see your new haircut soon.. If you want to come in QC, just send me a mail before... We should take a booze together !! biggrin

En passant, bravo pour le franais... kiss kiss

Have a nice week !!!! xxxxxxx
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at long last, an update about the birthday weekend.

firstly, thank you for the birthday wishes. you are all much too sweet. you had me purring like a kitten at all the attention. though i daresay i felt i deserved it; i get quite self-righteous and greedy around my birthday. i love you, k? trust.

so friday i had my last teaching day. huzzah! no...
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copillia:
congrats on being done (for a while)! biggrin kiss
teddykev:
Glad to hear the birthday wishes made you happy and coolness on the weekend girl love them picssmile


Your friendly neighborhood teddykevsmile
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happy birthday, me.

you're 24. you're so far from reaching your dreams. you've reached everything you wanted so far and yet you lack everything others have (and take for granted).

i'm drunk on sangria and on life. it's a lovely feeling. tonight i had plans to go see the arcade fire but scalpers destroyed my dream. and then, along came 2 brilliant and wonderful people...
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strongmad:
Thanks. kiss It's all so hard. When you describe your situation, on the one hand I want to say, "Yeah, if it's not instant, don't waste your time." On the other hand, I'd hate to see you pass up someone wonderful because you didn't dig a little deeper, you know?

Don't you wish you had complete knowledge? Like, someone you could be completely happy with would glow a blue aura or something? You could spot them in a crowd, and go forward without any doubts. When I think about that it makes me wonder how many I've walked past in my life, or been introduced to fleetingly at some party or something.

I really need to stop thinking about this. smile Can't wait to hear of your birthday adventures.
flaneur:
The happiest of belated birthdays to you.
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i need a new profile picture. i'm so sick of looking at this one every time i sign in. this one will have to do until i find something i'm more into.

today, shortly after viewing Malloreigh's hot new set, i saw sin city with rick. we had plans to go, but what a coincidence that this set should arrive today! i loved it....
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giddyiguana:
Hey, I just noticed...we share a birthday! You, me, and Vladimir Lenin. What a team!

Oh, and your new profile pic kicks ass too. biggrin
ch1st0ph3r:
Happy Birthday! smile
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a late update, i know. but i was suddenly overcome by a thought i thought had long been gone. it is so persisnant and hammers at my head at such a rate that i cannot even put into words just yet. i'll let jeanette winterson speak for me. here she comes.

'Will you understand? I am not sure that I understand it myself. Give me...
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sebastien:
She's a very textual writer. You feel her words more than you just read them.
teddykev:
Thanks for the awesome read girl.

Meh soul needed that kiss


Your friendly neighborhood teddykevsmile
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strongmad:
That's pretty big for a petite lass like yourself!
foxkilla:
i took middle eastern dancing in my first year of university!
....cant say ive ever been there, the scene in t.o. kinda blows these days--club district is just untouchable (unless of course youre in a tube top, underaged, and enjoy the free feels by pauchy forty somethings), college street is pretentious as fuck and nobody knows how to dance (they all look like they're having seizures), queen.w is so so (the bouncers at the drake are really sweet), and everywhere else is hit and miss depending on who youre with...you should do something totally excessive for your bday! id come smile
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i have been a selfish bitch the last few days and i'd be lying if i said i haven't been living it up and loving every bastardly moment.

thursday night, i went to see stars (and the organ [exclaim tour]) with Chanel and her marvelous friend, ted. it was lovely. third time i've seen stars now. i'm becoming something of an, uhmmm, starlet, let's say....
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19aces:
Very cool...like ice
chanel:
oh my dear dear lady
that was such a fanstastic night
and you looked so damn good. really. teddy was real impressed.

were gonna have to go out more often. oh yes!
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chanel:
I had the most fabulous night with you last night dah-ling.

cant wait to do it again!!!! Make sure you call teddy and hang out, cause he loved you wink

Ill come up again real soon so we can go out for a night of pure havoc. boo ya!
copillia:
kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss
oh and kiss !



[Edited on Apr 16, 2005 11:16AM]
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strongmad:
Wow, A must be busy! Hope everything's going well, frenchie poo. smile
copillia:
Hi darling

It was nice chatting with you online the other daysorry its taken me a while to get back to your comment.
Choosing a career because your parents want you to never seems like a good idea to me! I hope you at least find it somewhat fulfilling and stimulating. Otherwise, why bother? Well, I suppose there are lots of reasons to bother, money being one of the biggest. But I completely understand the position youre in You are a creative, dynamic person and your talents should not go to waste.
All I know is that when I write articles and do the layout for Indigo, Im happy. Im fulfilled. I can work for three hours straight without realizing it. Sometimes I can get really excited about teaching, but often times I feel like a stranger who doesnt belong.
Ack such tough decisions!
Anyway, I hope things work out for you. When do you leave for France by the way? I hope we get to talk before then.
Kisses.
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