Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...
hey, i sent u something in the mail today...like real mail...snail mail. they asked at the p.o. if i wanted delivery confirmation, i said no...i figured you'd let me know when u get it. enjoy! and share with forgotten!
btw...took my finals...the semester is OVER!!! yay!!! i really am not sure how i did on geog, but i NAILED my math final! celebration will commence asap!
we gotta get something together for a set...
Yay!!!!!!!! I finished my Christmas shopping for my kids today! Or I think anyway! I got them everything they wrote on their list...they each had like 3 things...not much and they deserve it. They are wonderful! I wish I could give them more...but the best thing is they don't want more.
Happy Saturday night! WOO FUCKING HOO!!!! I am at Shimmer's house!! We are trying on new panties and new pjs...and fuzzy slippers! There is nothing like new sexy panties, a bottle of rum and two cute ckickys to make Saturday night such a good one!
We have been out to dinner...three drinks for each us! WOO HOO...the waiter suggested I have a Siberian Husky... Read More
Thank you to everyone for all your emails and comments yesterday...I am sorry I was in such a sad mood. I am feeling much better...thanks for helping me get there.
How is everyone today?
Wow...I am so up and down...today I am very UP!
I took the kids out last night and we got our tree and pizza and we came home and... Read More
Good to see you in better spirits today!! Seems like kids have a way of helping out with that. I met my baby nephew for the first time almost a year ago and I was so amazed about what an effect he had on me, and I'm only an uncle! Anyway, I hope you enjoy the holidays this year and I'll have a small something for you coming your way. Take care and keep in touch. Oh! Just one more thing, I'd like to mention.......
Glad your doing better , Im not really sure how im doing at the moment though, kinda have alot of thoughts coming at me all at once. To many questions.....
I am depressed...really depressed. I want to crawl in a hole and never come out. I haven't been this bad in a long time. I had an anxiety attack for the first time in a long time the other day...that kinda bums me out. I hate those. Last time things were really bad I was only sleeping 1 or 2 hours a night...my sleep is... Read More
Wow i hope everything works out for you, I know how you feel, this christmas my two daughters will be with their mother and i'll be alone, I feel so depressed about this and it hurts. We bought our tree last night and it was fun decorating it with them, heck we even watched Charlie Brown Christmas twice. I will miss them. Kids can surly cheer things up. So when you feel down think of them play with them or talk to them their smile will brighten your day. Stay strong and have a good weekend.
Happy Wednesday! I am exhausted! I had the worst time getting myself out of bed today...it was so bad that I ended up at Dunkin Donuts with the kids in my pjs! Hahaha!!! I didn't get up early enough, and neither did they, to have breakfast at home...so they had donuts...oh well one day won't kill them! I have a bunch of stuff to get... Read More
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am BACK!!!!!!!!!! Did you even know I was gone?! I can not even tell you the story of my damn computer and the problems I have had since yesterday morning....all I did was go to the cable company to get a cabel modem...and move my computer out of that dark hallway into my nice cozy living room and all of a sudden NOTHING... Read More
yeah, i noticed you were gone...who wouldn't?? lol
hope you can still make it up here this weekend. let me know if u need directions, and what time you plan on coming up on saturday.
talk to you soon.
Holly Shit your dad's a fuck witt. he doesn't deserve to be in your life. The only way you are going to be able to deal with stuff about him is if you have space away from him. You can always have a week holiday in NZ Music is my firend.
Woo hoo! It's Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!! I think thats a good thing. Well I just finished making banana pancakes for the gang. Now I have to shower and head out to go grocery shopping..you know the typical Saturday thing to do when you have no other plans. Tonight...nothing...I am going to sit around and watch movies. There are some Christmas specials on tonight that the kiddos wanna... Read More
I'm alright otherwise.. starting to get hungry but its almost lunch time so all is well.
As far as those coasters go.. my wife and I got the exact same kind for my parents last christmas. funny as hell aren't they? Sounds like you and forgotten are gettin in all the quiet time you can.. he still plan on leaving?
why do I only believe 10 percent of what I hear?
why do I believe everyone has a hidden agenda?
why do I believe that anyone who says I love you will leave someday?
why do I believe I love you is SO much more then words? Dont you? Its smiles and intamacy...and hugs and kisses...and the wanting to be there for the other person...it... Read More
Saveme. What happened? Is everything OK? I'm sorry I missed you on messenger (again). I just got back. For right now, know that I AM thinking about you a lot and I hope you're doing alright. Email me or message me and I will get back to you. Miss you.
Sorry to hear like things went down; or at least that you're not feeling good right now I can sympathize. I have a tendency of getting really down on myself, especially when things start getting rough. Let me add to your list (well, with things that relate to me..so its not really YOUR list, irs more like my list but umm...you know)
Why do I refuse to listen to other people's advice
Why am I so sure that no one can really know me, or know whats good for me
Why do I always shoot my mouth off; saying the wrong thing at the wrong time
Why don't I ever seen happy doing what I'm doing
Why do isolate myself even further when I'm feeling depressed
Why the hell do I seem to get depressed easier than most people
Why is it that, despite being a fairly well adjusted young adult, I am continually convinced that I don't fit in; you'd think scars from High School would have healed after 6 years.
GAH!
Oh well, its actually been a pretty good day lately; although I almost got CO poisoning a few days ago *grrrr*
Or I think anyway! I got them everything they wrote on their list...they each had like 3 things...not much and they deserve it. They are wonderful! I wish I could give them more...but the best thing is they don't want more.
BLEH! but hopefully thurs/fri i will have off!!! WOOFUCKINGHOO!!!!!
btw...took my finals...the semester is OVER!!! yay!!! i really am not sure how i did on geog, but i NAILED my math final! celebration will commence asap!
we gotta get something together for a set...