My lady and I have been together for 11 years now. We have had am open relationship for maybe 4 of these years. We are as happy as ever and have really worked out all of our bullshit. Its nice to have a partner in crime that knows pretty much everything you do before you do it.
I have come to realize recently that I don't know how cut out I am for someone else's issues. There are so many different kinds of relationship's in this world from friends with benefits to full on love relationships. I really don't think I can be in a poly kind of relationship. Maybe I haven't met the right person for it? Its all just very exhausting I'm not talking about giving up this life but I feel like stepping back.
This is all stemming from a rather odd experience. I don't think I led her on. I told her from the start that I didn't think I could have the feelings past really good friends. I couldn't drop the L word. That's reserved for my son and lady.
Blah. Its all just confusing. I'm just not a talk 24/7 person. I think what did it was after we met up for an evening she was wanting me explain myself after I got home. I was just blitzed with how do you feel? What was it like for you? All valid questions but not 12 hours removed. I just wanted a little space. I told her this and she was offended.
I don't want to let this ruin future relationship possibilities but damn if it isn't a little sour.
I have come to realize recently that I don't know how cut out I am for someone else's issues. There are so many different kinds of relationship's in this world from friends with benefits to full on love relationships. I really don't think I can be in a poly kind of relationship. Maybe I haven't met the right person for it? Its all just very exhausting I'm not talking about giving up this life but I feel like stepping back.
This is all stemming from a rather odd experience. I don't think I led her on. I told her from the start that I didn't think I could have the feelings past really good friends. I couldn't drop the L word. That's reserved for my son and lady.
Blah. Its all just confusing. I'm just not a talk 24/7 person. I think what did it was after we met up for an evening she was wanting me explain myself after I got home. I was just blitzed with how do you feel? What was it like for you? All valid questions but not 12 hours removed. I just wanted a little space. I told her this and she was offended.
I don't want to let this ruin future relationship possibilities but damn if it isn't a little sour.