I've been wanting to type this up for a little while now.
My life for the most part has always been a shut in and keep to myself. I have very few close friends in my life and they are the best. Most nights are spent on the computer. Even more so about four years ago after I found out about my ex having an affair on me. Since then I've only had two girlfriends. So here I am now going on 35 and I've only had three relationships in my life. It's easy for me to make friends but getting some one to want me for me has always been hard just because I am not a "normal" male based off what you'd find in the area. I don't drink, do drugs or smoke. I was raised to give your body to someone you love. I've had a few ladies say they would "fuck" me but that's just not who I am. They are shocked and don't know how to take it and move on from me. So needless to say every night is a lonely night. Making me become even more of a shut in.
For years I've enjoyed being a fan of Suicide Girls on Facebook. Loving the variety of women that were being posted. All to often wishing that there were some like that around where I live, trust me they would stick right out where I live. Then last fall while on Facebook for yet another night I notice a profile pic off to the side of a lovely lady. Normally I don't really pay attention to them but this one just stuck out for some reason. So I said to hell with it and clicked on her picture. It brought me to Cheshire_'s Facebook page. After it brought me there I looked around her page, feeling like a really big creeper , even though it was her page for promoting herself. Well after about two hours I worked up the courage just to tell her she was a beautiful woman and that she had a lovely smile (Something I couldn't do face to face cause I'd probably pass out or something). Figuring that my comment would just get lost in I'm sure a long list of messages and I'd just be ignored as another person just paying a compliment. Well the next day I was surprised to see that she replied and shortly after I had logged of. Then at some point shortly after that I asked to be her friend on FB. For awhile it was just a little talk here and there. As it got closer to x-mas, the hardest time of year for me cause that's when I found out about the affair, we started to talk a little more. At some point she asked if I was a member on here and I told her not yet but was going to be. I had made the choice back in November to become a member when I had saved the money for a year membership, yeah sad that I had to save up a mere $48. I figured I'd make it worth it in case I enjoyed what I found on here. Well x-mas eve came and that is when I joined.
For many nights I spent my time poking around the site and getting an idea of how not to be a "creepy" guy. Well I'll always feel like that no matter what just because that's how I feel about myself, not being a "normal" guy and all. After a few weeks of kinda getting around the place and joining a few groups I started to give up and was thinking of cancelling my membership. That's when I got a little push from kas telling me to give it a little more time. Well that was all I really needed was that little push. While I still haven't come out of my shell completely I have chatted with some lovely ladies Fernanda Babel and even a young gentleman Punx But I must say I look forward the most hearing from Tempest and Charlice. These two have put a lot of light into my usually dark little world. For that I can't thank you enough. Someday I may even get the courage to strike up a conversation with a few of my favorites on here but for now baby steps.
Next I want to say thank you to all the lovely ladies that put up sets on here. While I will probably never meet any of you in the real world, as I live in the middle of nowhere Maine, coming on here brightens up my day. To see all the hard work and the bravery it takes to show yourself to the world. While some sets are better then others don't let that stop you from trying your best. Listen to those that give you constructive criticism and ignore those that are just negative. No matter you're looks, race, background, or whatever other categories you can place yourself into you are BEAUTIFUL IN YOUR OWN WAY!! All I'd ask for is for more smiles with the sets. So many photos of beautiful women and there are no smiles. Just a few good smiles and I know I posted it somewhere no "cheerleader" smiles a.k.a. fake ones. I can spot those a mile away seeing my baby girl has been cheering for many years now so I'm used to seeing them. Unless it doesn't really fit the theme of your set, but then again you could just throw them in just for me.
Also to all of you that have a husband/boyfriend or wife/girlfriend that SUPPORTS YOU 100% without getting to jealous of others looking at your beautiful lady tell them A HUGE THANK YOU FROM ME FOR SHARING YOU WITH THE WORLD!!
I will end with this. For the first time in over 4 years I seemed to have stumbled into a place I hope to call "home" for a long time.
My life for the most part has always been a shut in and keep to myself. I have very few close friends in my life and they are the best. Most nights are spent on the computer. Even more so about four years ago after I found out about my ex having an affair on me. Since then I've only had two girlfriends. So here I am now going on 35 and I've only had three relationships in my life. It's easy for me to make friends but getting some one to want me for me has always been hard just because I am not a "normal" male based off what you'd find in the area. I don't drink, do drugs or smoke. I was raised to give your body to someone you love. I've had a few ladies say they would "fuck" me but that's just not who I am. They are shocked and don't know how to take it and move on from me. So needless to say every night is a lonely night. Making me become even more of a shut in.
For years I've enjoyed being a fan of Suicide Girls on Facebook. Loving the variety of women that were being posted. All to often wishing that there were some like that around where I live, trust me they would stick right out where I live. Then last fall while on Facebook for yet another night I notice a profile pic off to the side of a lovely lady. Normally I don't really pay attention to them but this one just stuck out for some reason. So I said to hell with it and clicked on her picture. It brought me to Cheshire_'s Facebook page. After it brought me there I looked around her page, feeling like a really big creeper , even though it was her page for promoting herself. Well after about two hours I worked up the courage just to tell her she was a beautiful woman and that she had a lovely smile (Something I couldn't do face to face cause I'd probably pass out or something). Figuring that my comment would just get lost in I'm sure a long list of messages and I'd just be ignored as another person just paying a compliment. Well the next day I was surprised to see that she replied and shortly after I had logged of. Then at some point shortly after that I asked to be her friend on FB. For awhile it was just a little talk here and there. As it got closer to x-mas, the hardest time of year for me cause that's when I found out about the affair, we started to talk a little more. At some point she asked if I was a member on here and I told her not yet but was going to be. I had made the choice back in November to become a member when I had saved the money for a year membership, yeah sad that I had to save up a mere $48. I figured I'd make it worth it in case I enjoyed what I found on here. Well x-mas eve came and that is when I joined.
For many nights I spent my time poking around the site and getting an idea of how not to be a "creepy" guy. Well I'll always feel like that no matter what just because that's how I feel about myself, not being a "normal" guy and all. After a few weeks of kinda getting around the place and joining a few groups I started to give up and was thinking of cancelling my membership. That's when I got a little push from kas telling me to give it a little more time. Well that was all I really needed was that little push. While I still haven't come out of my shell completely I have chatted with some lovely ladies Fernanda Babel and even a young gentleman Punx But I must say I look forward the most hearing from Tempest and Charlice. These two have put a lot of light into my usually dark little world. For that I can't thank you enough. Someday I may even get the courage to strike up a conversation with a few of my favorites on here but for now baby steps.
Next I want to say thank you to all the lovely ladies that put up sets on here. While I will probably never meet any of you in the real world, as I live in the middle of nowhere Maine, coming on here brightens up my day. To see all the hard work and the bravery it takes to show yourself to the world. While some sets are better then others don't let that stop you from trying your best. Listen to those that give you constructive criticism and ignore those that are just negative. No matter you're looks, race, background, or whatever other categories you can place yourself into you are BEAUTIFUL IN YOUR OWN WAY!! All I'd ask for is for more smiles with the sets. So many photos of beautiful women and there are no smiles. Just a few good smiles and I know I posted it somewhere no "cheerleader" smiles a.k.a. fake ones. I can spot those a mile away seeing my baby girl has been cheering for many years now so I'm used to seeing them. Unless it doesn't really fit the theme of your set, but then again you could just throw them in just for me.
Also to all of you that have a husband/boyfriend or wife/girlfriend that SUPPORTS YOU 100% without getting to jealous of others looking at your beautiful lady tell them A HUGE THANK YOU FROM ME FOR SHARING YOU WITH THE WORLD!!
I will end with this. For the first time in over 4 years I seemed to have stumbled into a place I hope to call "home" for a long time.
kas:
YAY!! glad you're here
zombiebacon:
Glad you like it here I joined for a month & couldn't let go Lol. I enjoy everything here. SG's... Members... Groups. This is a wonderful place