So I have been trying to update for about two weeks now. Maybe a little more. I swear it seems everytime I sit down to do this I have to shut down.. run somewhere or just am spinning in circles. Circles is the theme lately I tried keeping a journal again but I haven't been able to up date it fast enough with current event. Now I don't know where to begin. so here is the extreme short version.. Deaths & loves. But thankfully not the death of my love. Three people gone and one here that is building a stronger force by day. Hopefully things will call. Just one day at a time.