It's way too hot outside. 105 degrees w/ heat index...what the shit? While working today was talking to a government worker at the bar, and I mentioned HAARP to him. He just laughed, but it must've been from the irony in the fact that a cute girl knew about such an obscure military group in Alaska that's changing our weather patterns. A side effect of the highly charged particles that are being blasted into the ionsphere and creating heat patches. All disguised as nonfatal war tactics. o_O. No wonder its hot as balls outside...the fucking military is controlling the weather too!
I sometimes really hate my level of intelligence. I really am above average in brains, but I feel that my thoughts lead me to more misery. I dream of what it'd be like to be stupid...how much simpler would life be? I think way too much sometimes and my thoughts are like daggers into my everyday happiness. I try to understand everything in this world for what it truly is, and I fear I'm in the minority. I see so many people out here doing very little to really comprehend the world around them...as if it doesn't really matter. I guess the real question here is, does it really matter? If life is insignificant and we all only have one chance, why can't I relax for a minute? I have eyes of sorrow, and a heavy heart.
What I really want to know is why me.... why is my life so much more difficult than nearly everyone around me. Maybe I'm just not considering what they also go through. Actually forget difficulty, I can handle that, but "normal". My home life, personal life, work life, even LOVE life are so polar opposite to my friends. I love them to death, but I guess we want what we can't have & I yearn for simplicity.... I guess complex minds live complex lives. That makes sense right?
On that note, I think I need to smoke some marijuana now and take a nap
I sometimes really hate my level of intelligence. I really am above average in brains, but I feel that my thoughts lead me to more misery. I dream of what it'd be like to be stupid...how much simpler would life be? I think way too much sometimes and my thoughts are like daggers into my everyday happiness. I try to understand everything in this world for what it truly is, and I fear I'm in the minority. I see so many people out here doing very little to really comprehend the world around them...as if it doesn't really matter. I guess the real question here is, does it really matter? If life is insignificant and we all only have one chance, why can't I relax for a minute? I have eyes of sorrow, and a heavy heart.
What I really want to know is why me.... why is my life so much more difficult than nearly everyone around me. Maybe I'm just not considering what they also go through. Actually forget difficulty, I can handle that, but "normal". My home life, personal life, work life, even LOVE life are so polar opposite to my friends. I love them to death, but I guess we want what we can't have & I yearn for simplicity.... I guess complex minds live complex lives. That makes sense right?
On that note, I think I need to smoke some marijuana now and take a nap
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jman76:
Hope things get better
jbart42:
don't forget earthquakes too. the military can cause earthquakes