unfortunately, the insanity that is my life stops not for thanksgiving. this holiday always depresses me because i was taught it school that thanksgiving is evil and we raped the native americans etc. so, despite my great love of food, i find it hard to celebrate. i bought a couple things; blueberry cider and the makings of orange cranberry bread. i am hoping eric will come through with the tofurkey. i have yet to have one, so i am curious. it's weird to imagine this as our last holiday together. i went and looked at a house today, it made me more depressed. part of me can't imagine living on my own, and part of me is bursting with excitement. part of me loves eric and part of me thinks he is a manipulative asshole. i need to get out of this relationship, but it is really, really hard.
so that is my thanksgiving this year. hopefully christmas will be better. and if it isn't, my birthday will have to top last years- i worked last year.
oh well. make the best of it. hey, maybe charlie brown will be on tonight! okay. now i feel a little better. it's slow, but it happens.
so that is my thanksgiving this year. hopefully christmas will be better. and if it isn't, my birthday will have to top last years- i worked last year.
oh well. make the best of it. hey, maybe charlie brown will be on tonight! okay. now i feel a little better. it's slow, but it happens.
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cheers!
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