Really becoming tired of trying to find a balance in my life but never achieving it....
Trying to be a good son to my mother yet I have a father that is so dysfunctional and that he doesn't realize how much he burdens everyone around him.... my sister and i both think he would have been diagnosed as having Asperger's as a young kid if they had the knowledge then.
Wanting to do some good in the world with what i am wanting to do yet my full time job is downsizing and they place a higher commitment to numbers rather than quality.... the part time tutoring business owner keeps taking advantage of putting the students first.
I enjoy being around friends but the group is fraying over differences of opinion constantly.
I miss having a special person to love and cherish yet completely gun-shy because of being gaslighted so often....
Gotta find some balance soon.... because I am losing my mind.