At times I feel like a drowning person, flailing, reaching for anything that might save my life. It seems I am always living my life in an urgent way. desperately struggling to justify my life, loves, and feelings. Albert Camus said " There is scarcely any passion without struggle.” I believe this to be true. My passion, at times, feels like it will consume me. I wish I could be less passionate, but this is who I am, what I am about.