madamedevour

"And to tell you the truth this telephone booth gets lonesome in the rain. But, son, I'm 23 in Nashville and I'm 47 in Maine. And when your mama gets home would you tell her I phoned-it'd take a lifetime to explain that I'm a country picker with a bumpersticker that says: God Bless John Wayne."

by kinky himself.

-The tv has been a constant blaring background noise lately. Yackty yack. it comforts me when im home alone, I just like noise period, nothing like falling asleep to jerry springer.

-im going to bake cookies soon, have alittle hobo Christmas. fire in a trash can the whole bit.

-I want to study Buddhism, but im too lazy, anyone have any enlightenment??

-I really love...
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Little laser vision
Rat race with all the other girls
Cheese on staples
And I see you on the trap
Snap, and we are running without tails

Who said I was you?

Bleeding from the mouth
I cut my eyes out to be blinded from you
Just hand me the wifes butcher knife

Poor little rat race
Theres no perfect incision

We all bleed out...
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-My mind in the past few months has been a blur. My thoughts are planned and thought out precisely, but no follow through. Its all baby steps to the cake walk. Can little girls still be scared too. I know my mind is ready for change in a drastic way, but am I ready, will I be lost in others opinions again? Will I loose...
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Today's "spirituality" is mostly (I) fundamentalist revivals, (2) new age narcissism, (3) mythic regression, (4) web-of-life subtle reductionism, (5) flatland holism.

-ken wilber

i've read this over a million times. i think it's point blank.

I love my Catholic candles, even though I am still searching for my lost faith. I mean honestly, can something that costs less than a buck cleanse me of my sins? Maybe it works like shaking salt across your shoulder. just some good luck. I just appreciate them being around on rainy days.

Tomorrow, im going to call my doc up about some acupuncture. My...
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i need to start making lists. so i can start making steps in the right direction, not that im stepping in the wrong direction, i just don't want to become stagnet. i need to see on paper what's next, in a sense that's a step! right?

but hell i've been doing pretty good for myself.

i need to start up a band, anyone interested? i...
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Just ate some jack in the box, they make these specialty salads these days, I guess because everyone is becoming so goddamn health conscious. I still like my fries fried in lard, didnt McDonalds reinvent their fry recipe to be more healthier, something about frying them in vegetable oil?? I know they have new improved chicken nuggets that taste like the old pressed together chicken...
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it's nice to be back on the site. god. i feel so out of touch now. lots of change. new girls, new everything.

i looked back on my past journals. can you guys say retaaaard. i mean i was a screaming it. but hey, i like retards.

but yeah how have all you terds been?? Tell me about it.

so yeah i have a bladder infection and a yeast infection...who figures?

its weird how your body sends you signals before you're about to get sick. about a couple of weeks ago i was thinking about going on another juice fast..but decided not to. and ta da, bladder infection. but its okay, i went to the doctor and she checked me out. i enjoy going...
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god you know when you are a little kid and you see 'day of the dead' for the first time...how the images stick with you..the whole gut ripping zombie killer dilema. well yeah...

today was kinda of like that...the end of it atleast..it was a good day went and met up with this fella Nox..met him at barton springs..with my friend lauren, it went sweelll...but...
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sirens scream, laughing fills the knots in my ears...click goes the turn signal and the wind is pulling the car down the ditch, leaves wave and walk down the brick, white is nowhere

i see in vivd color
vivid color
vivid madness

sitting still shaking with fists closed tight and legs shutting in the warmth, flying, my hair goes past my neck..my thoughts..images, are all...
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