(holy shit, I think I broke this site! I posted this blog then can't edit it for like 15 minutes, tried reloading, tried 3 different browsers, wtf!)
So posting while drinking, what could go wrong?
Well for starters... suidegirls.com isn't a valid domain and loading my blog apparently results in a Katy Perry song playing which isn't good for anyone.
So yeah. She's a sword in a stone. She can't see what she is and neither can we but it is obvious that she's worth the effort of pulling out of her stone.
It isn't possible though. If you miss the hilt you'll cut yourself in the effort. Even if you lose a hand, even if you lose an arm, she's worth the effort.
Neither you, nor she, nor anyone will know the result of removing her from the stone, but all of us know that she's worth the effort, because it is the effort that is the joy, and that no matter what we will die trying to free her and be there in the meantime. Only fools will not attempt it, only fools will give up if they are hurt.
The strongest of us will try as hard as they can because they want you as a tool and see you as nothing but. Others will hear your song and be so enraptured they will never leave your side. Some feel your touch as so cold it robs their souls of life. Some feel it as electric and it charges them so much that they will never leave lest they never again know so much ecstasy. But most will know only your stubbornness. You must want to remain in your stone. Those that care and remain know you ache for freedom as much as we ache for you to know its joy.
I don't know how to go single day without trying to undo the hurt caused to you. I don't know how to go a day trying to say to you or to prove to you that I love you and will remain here available to you. I may distance myself but I don't know how to leave, or how to not love you.
We who remain are a brotherhood and it seems it is our duty to just hang out? Game.
But I'm of the class of fool that has attempted it and been hurt but I'm confused. Why when I know better do I still convey that I have any pain at all? For I am a fool.
I don't want to hurt her. But only do but that. How could I though? she's sheathed in stone? Any part of her that is exposed will know any pain imparted. I don't what to reef on her so hard that she'll break, how could I she's a sword made of the strongest stuff known.
I'm only therefore going to hurt myself. But I know and can't stop hurting her like all the others but a select few do.
I'm capable of taking that pain of attempting to handle her would though. Even though I know the worst thing to do is to try to handle her rather than just be here and appreciate who she is. But I don't know how to keep trying or to stop. I don't know how to stop hurting. I'm not sure how to stop trying. I can't unless I die because that's what I accepted to do.
There are so many others that have accepted the challenge and they keep thinking they are making more progress. And no progress can be made. The more that try the more likely likely she will get broken and and up dead.
End of the story I guess is that I can't. And won't. And am a bastard regardless.