luzblah

eek! that's dreadful - here's hoping you get a new one in the sales

beign away from distractions sometimes forces you to takea look at the real situation and soemtimes its not that fun of a realisation. im not feeling very festive either....i had a bad thing happen on christmas day a couple of years ago.....so for now....its just a couple of days to me. it will have to be more soon when my son understands what christmas is.

so just think of it as a few days....where everyone else goes silly....just try to enjoy your time off work....have a bath, a long one with loads of bubbles!! eat till your bursting and have a lie in.

Hello.

It's Mr Cadwell V2 thank you vrey much

I shook hands with Glenn Gregory and Martyn Ware from Heaven 17 on Thursday evening. Does that do the trick?

i know what you mean about the climate....my fella has been trying to get a job for a while now and absolutly nothing is coming up our baby is only 10 weeks old, and money is getting really tight.

hope you get the time off you want, even if youre not bothered about christmas time off is great.

As long as you realise that this is the gayest thing ever I won't mock you.

Hi. Getting in touch and in tune with your artistic side is a not difficult, but it is not easy because it is a constant struggle. The normal world does not want you to do it. Just everything in this"normal" world wants to take that away from you because it is a huge part of what makes you special and different. The world doesn't want you different, they want us ot be the same. It is easier to target us demographically if we are the same. Advertising revenues are larger when they can bunch a whole group of us together and sell us to a brand.

You need to set some time aside for yourself. Quality time. Devote it to your photography, your creative impulses and desires. You need to allow yourself to make mistakes and not expect masterpieces every time. Remember how we used to write a first draft and second draft? Artists filled sketchbooks with studies and sketches before going onto oil. Performers rehearse before they perform in public. Somehow, a lot of us feel, sometimes subconsciously, we feel that it needs to be amazing straight away and that prevents us from even starting something, we won't even try. That is what this 'normal" world does to us. Maybe this isn't your case. I am not suggesting that it is. But I hear too often "I'll start working on my album soon", "I haven't picked my camera in a year", "I haven't written a page in a while"....

Every day is a struggle. Just like recovering addicts or someone trying to lose weight, an artist is confronted every day by pressures making them feel inadequate. We must overcome these. Simple little things can help us through this. Get a cheap and small digital camera. Carry it with you. Take as many pictures as you can. Study things. Do "sketches".

Carry a small notepad or drawing book. Doodle. Draw.Write. Anything. you have nothing to prove or to show to anyone. This is all private. Same with your photos. Private until you choose that it is ready to show to others. Until then, it is for you.

Set some time aside. Mornings. Afternoons. Evening. It's amazing what can be done in 30 minutes when it is entirely yours to do with what you please.

Have fun. rediscover the fun part. It's like going outside to play once again. Have fun. Have fun.

Soon, the urge will come back with a vengeance. You will become very protective of YOUR time. You will make the most of it. Believe me, do this 100 consecutive days and you will start feeling like anything is possible again.

By the way, the photos you took of yourself are great. One feels and senses your personality and charm.

Also, getting a new camera is always a fun thing, but don't get mislead. I have a friend who thought he needed a new guitar and then new amplifier only to discover after major expenses that he was still the same and nothing had changed. If the new camera is a way to invest in yourself, great, do it. If not, rediscover you d50. Try shooting things differently. Try shooting things you've never attempted before, Find new subjects. Etc.

Invest in yourself. A trip to an unknown city or even an unknown neighbourhood with your old camera will be cheaper and more inspiring,

Take care of yourself.

SnoekieNYC

nice make-up.

the nearest i ever get to make-up is chocolate all round me fissog

I got a crush on her too. She's so pretty and I love her voice.

shit, i forgot it was on!

been listening to their stuff on myspace for the last few weeks though!

Tell me about it (well, you already have) - it's fucking arctic - and it's that creeping cold that means if you open a door it's back to square one heating the room-wise

she's lovely. who is she?