Hey peeps, how are you all? Hope you are all well and are having a good week/weekend. Welcome to another weekly blog of yours truly. Basically me talking about my week and just general stuff if your new to this blog series. Just whatever I feel like. Hope everyone likes these more laidback blogs where I just chat. No bullshit. Just me being myself.
So my week has been interesting. At the start of the week I was so down. Was very depressed that I had to go offline after my weekly blog last week. Due to my weekend last week being a total alone fest for me. So I had to be offline. I was upset that I was alone again. My folks were away doing things with their mates, my other family don’t talk to me, my friends work at the weekends, etc. So I was alone throughout 4 days last week. After I actually had a good last week being out on my walks. So I was quite down. I know people were at gigs & festivals. So I avoided it since I know it’ll upset me. Not for the people who were at the festivals don’t get me wrong. I’m happy that people are having a great time. It’s hard for me to look at for me personally since I’m alone and I’m doing everything I can to change my life since I’m unhappy. Been doing that for a while but I get sidelined a lot due to bad luck, relying on the wrong people, etc. Number of reasons. Usually cause I haven’t got the proper help for my mental health issues. I’ve improved cause I’ve been doing it myself. Been working my ass off on everything I do. Whatever it’s my walks, my cooking, managing my family, my self meditation, hell even at my blogs here & my fan accounts. I’m always working hard. Usually to the point I don’t sleep much. I’m very determined to change my lonely boring life.
So I took a break from online. Even when I came back on Thursday to do my latest Favourite SG Sets blog I was online part time. Maybe I just need to go on when I feel like it. I haven’t fall out with anyone. In fact if it wasn’t for this community or how awesome the people are here or on my fan accounts, I would have left back last year’s summer. Cause the truth is I’m not really a porn guy. Even though I get along with a lot of the alt models who do porn and got nothing but respect for them and sex workers in general. I’m not a porn guy. Never have, never will. I’m more a glamour style fan you know what I mean. But I do support my favourite alt model’s porn, fetish, etc stuff cause they have been awesome to me personally and I’m grateful to them. In fact I don’t mind it now due to personally liking them since their mates. Mates support each other you know. If it wasn’t for the friendships I made with members & models alike I would have left. But I’m staying and I ain’t going nowhere.
So how was my time offline? It was relaxing tbh. I just been gaming in Days Gone a lot. So much that I did this...
Got my 14th platinum on it. I enjoyed the game. I think it’s one of the best games this year, critics are dead wrong as always. I don’t pay attention what they think anyway since their reviews are full of errors and false information. So I don’t pay attention. Nobody should. You should play whatever game you want. Like everything really. Do whatever makes you happy you know. So I enjoyed the game, I recommend it if you love open world games.
So I was playing that and watching a lot of classic WWE, WCW ppvs on WWE Network as well. Also been cooking too. So been keeping busy. I didn’t walk til this weekend. By the time I wrote this I’ve just came back from a walk. Was at Culzean Castle and it was an awesome day.
Just a few of the pictures I’ve token when I was there. It was a great place. Was there with my folks. So peaceful and easygoing. I prefer doing these things. Doing to Castles and all that. It also had a deer park (didn’t went to that unfortunately), a big pond, etc. I think sometimes they do ghost tours at the castle at night. I love to do that since I love that stuff. I’m a big horror fan so that’s up my alley lol. Also it has a library there that sell books very cheap. I got these...
Got those for only 5 quid for all three. So that’s 3 bucks for yous Americans I think. So it’s a good deal. I actually have a bit of a cookbook collection since I am a home cook and I like Jamie’s food. Yeah that’s right I’m a Jamie Oliver guy lol. I’m also a fan of Gordon Ramsay fan too. I’m just a fan of cookery & baking in general. Have been since I was a kid. Always watched cookery shows outside my marvel cartoons, Nick shows, pro wrestling and Kerrang/Scuzz (music channels here in the UK) so I was always a nerd for that. Also I’m a massive Red Dwarf fan too. Kryten is my boy lol. Yeah why not. I’m also getting a few PlayStation VR games which I’ll show off next week in this blog. Also I’m going to be cooking a lot the next few days & probably go for more walks. Who knows. Things just happen you know. Got to go with the flow sometimes.
So was a bit depressed at the start but I feel a bit better. I needed that since my last CBT session was nothing to shout out about. It was the same thing as the last two sessions. Kinda a waste of time tbh with yous. I can’t wait for it to be over. It’s getting repetitive you know. I just hope something good happens comes out of it. Feels like a time waster you know. But I’m keeping at it, riding it through. That’s all I can do. Riding it through til something good happens. Have been for a while. Just got to not let negativity overtake my mind. It’s a challenge since I’m usually alone. But I’ve improved. Since most of yous know me for a year or so I think you’ll agree I’ve improved. I’m continuing to improve. Hell my blogs are signs I’ve improved. Cause if you saw my first Favourite SG Sets blog it wasn’t polished as my recent ones. Hell I didn’t credit the photographers on my first one but I learned from other blogs that they should be credited too so I improved.
If any of yous meet me years ago. Seriously all I did was rant. I was dead unhappy with everything and everyone. So much I was very anti people but I learned a lot and talk about it to my folks who have been the best help since their the only ones who are willing to help me. Still are. Especially after a few ex mates betrayed and cyber bullied me.
In fact I was close to going to the download festival but they went behind my back and use that as ammunition on me to bully me. So I continue to have my mental health worsened to the point of having suicidal thoughts. But my folks stood by me. Even though we have our disagreements but we look out for each other, care for each other and love each other. That’s all I want with people. Hell that’s what I want with my future girlfriend. Just loyally, understanding and giving a fuck you know.
So far I get that a lot from members and models in this awesome site. Hell so much so that I get cards and stuff from them. Even though I don’t ask for it but it shows me they care. Like @chroi who send me this
Which is pretty dope. Thank you very much @chroi and also got stuff from @missjcristina too from winning her IG competition a few weeks ago. So it means a lot. Hell even getting shoutouts from many of the models online means a lot. In fact I think besides @xheartswornx etc I get shoutout a lot. And I’m just a fan. Still grateful to every single one of them who do, even though I don’t ask for it cause I’m not like these freeloaders who ask for free nudes or show pictures of my dick you know. Maybe that’s why I do get shoutouts cause I don’t do that and treat them like proper human beings, I know mind blowing right lol.
So thanks @syrinn @phianixx @peachie_ @missjcristina @stormymissb @blaizee @helenarae @narsil @paigerose @reallifepirate @keshia @rubyalexia @chroi @sammiii and the other alt models who are not on here. As well as photographers like @tripodski (no shocker there lol) @niallpatterson and many others. I could name all day lol.
But most importantly my fellow members like @xheartswornx @ojtheviking @silentobjectorx @kaptaine who keep in touch with me even offline through my WhatsApp & PS4 (other game of BL 2 @xheartswornx hit me up) which yous models are open to have too if you want. Don’t worry it’s optional.
Yeah so it’s been better my week later on. Hopefully a better week ahead. I’m happy my latest Favourite SG Set blog is doing well. May do another Appreciation Blog this week. It’s a revisit of a model I talked about before. If you follow my fan accounts you know who it is. I’m on a mission on helping her get pink. So yeah hopefully it’ll happen soon for her.
In fact this is just an idea I have. I’m planning on doing my own website. It won’t happen overnight but love to do my own site where it’s similar to the Lads Magazines I grew up with. Like Nuts, Zoo Weekly, loaded, etc. Only in web form and it’ll feature alt models like here. Also it’ll have a video game, tv, film, sports, etc parts too. It’s not written in stone yet. It’s just an idea. Love to do something like that. Continue to grow the alt glamour modelling industry and give people more jobs & opportunities you know. Doing my part. Again it’s just an idea. I always have ideas. So yeah think it’s a good idea or not?
So to finish my weekly blog, my non SG model shoutout is the lady in my cover. It’s Alisha Marie or Lily Moonflower. You can follow her on Twitter HERE and her Instagram HERE she’s great. Gorgeous lady in & out. Check her out. Just another reminder how gorgeous she is...
Anyway thank yous all for reading my blog peeps. I’m grateful to yous all. Yous are the best.
Til the next blog this is KungFury saying take care, much love and take an offline break if you need it. No matter who you are. Everything in moderation!! 👍🏻
@missy @rambo @sean