Alone...Social?

It's all the same......painful.

broken.

Oh on top of that that I ripped a few of the tendons and ligaments in my hands.

So I've been a bit absent from posting recently. Mainly just trying to keep myself busy so I don't think, cause when I think, I think of Her.

Long story short I was in Italy for a good part of the summer (God I miss it there) and I met someone and while I WON'T call it love at first sight. I even hesitate (sp?) to use the word "love". There was something special with her, she made me feel.........at peace. Long story short it didn't end well and now I'm left dealing with these....memories.

Anyway I'm trying to be more social cause that's probably the best thing.

Ever feel like you're talking but nobody is listening?

.........................Well somebody?


......anybody there?

You guys suck!


Anyway back in the states, well if you call that where I am.....I call it hell cause I hate this town. Anyway back on point here for a wedding and some partying. More from me later.

Much love

What the FUCK does private mean?

In a weird mood..........so expect weird random questions.

Still alive just be in a ' I don't want to talk about it' mood.




More when I feel better.

I know....I know. I'm working on THAT UPDATE.

Not alot of time right now but I just wanted you guys to check these out http://www.chemsetcomics.com/ and more on what this is at http://forum.newsarama.com/showthread.php?t=79652

Not my work but that of the VERY talented Vauxhall. Show the boy some love.

I'm alive and well just dealing with a woman and the choas that seems to comes from that with the combination of my life.

Real update soon......................I PROMISE!!!!

edit- Just need to clear my head.............fuck.......maybe talk more later.......

I'M BACK BITCHES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Ok originally I typed this big motherfuckin entry then my fuckin computer froze and I don't feel like typeing it again so I'll just leave it at I'm back and I got some SERIOUS FUCKIN STORIES, that and I'm presently pretty proper-fucked in the head right now......I'll explain later cause it's a fuckin long story.

Ok So it's been awhile, personally the reason is this new layout gives me a fuckin headache if I look at the screen for more then a minute. So you have to forgive the lack of an update.

So I promised you guys a little bit more personal stuff well here goes.

So there's this girl...........isn't that how it always starts? Anyway back on point. So this girl I've known for years now and honestly she is everything I could dream of. She's smart,funny, sexy, aggressive, fiesty, and so much more. Anyway the only problem is I met her about a month to late. When we met she had just started dating this really good guy and honestly I'm not pissed at him he's very nice but it just gets me sometimes when I see her. Maybe it's because when I meet someone I really like I get super-shy, like I usually won't talk at all and if I do I usually say something stupid. Anyway with her it was really no different other than we worked together so that forced us to deal with each other and through that we became friends. Now I liked her from the moment I saw her but again I knew it wouldn't be. I really got no idea why I'm telling you guys this but whatever.

I saw her again tonight she makes my soul smile.

And yes she knows how I feel, HELL all of are friends where we used to work all know.

I guess the reason why I bring this up is because about 6 months ago I was at home in the states and my mom asked the question of What Type of girl attracts me or what I look for. And I honestly never gave her an answer. It just sat there in my head and I've been going over this question for the last 6 months every chance I get. The only thing that comes to mind is this girl.

Silly I know.


Ok few other quick things-

-I presently hate the internet , it's the only place where I can drop 3 grand in a minute and still feel like I did nothing.

- Driving 180mph through downtown traffic at night while passing at least one cop and not getting pulled over is a blast.

-I HATE apple juice but LOVE apple cider


Ok that's it for me I'm off to Italy for the next 3-4 weeks. So I'll see you guys then, be safe and party hard. I got a fuckin plane to catch in 3 hours.