Is it wrong to be pissed of at your husband when he's in a war zone?
He was such an asshole to me tonight and I've cried and been angry and now I feel guilty because I'm angry, but DAMMIT, I will not be spoken to like some misbehaving child for being concerned about his safety!
He emailed me tonight & said he would be on messenger for a bit if I wanted to log on. So I did & we started talking. He said a couple of things and then just stopped. He wasn't logged out, but just not talking. So I asked him a couple of times if he was there & he didn't answer. I was sure it was a glitch with the internet, but it still sort of scares you. It's like the phone ringing in the middle of the night. You feel your heart race and even after you find out it's a wrong number, you are still scared. So I said "are you alright?'
He still didn't answer.
I emailed him and was trying to be normal, telling him what I did today & how my workouts were going, but at the end I said "email me or call as soon as you can so I know you are ok.
I got an email back from him chewing me out for "taking the worst possible path"
Then he said "Kerry - if I could call you, I wouldn't be on the damn internet."
I just replied that I was going to go & leave him alone, then I went & stood in the shower & cried for 15 minutes.
Asshole
I love him, but he can be such an asshole
He was such an asshole to me tonight and I've cried and been angry and now I feel guilty because I'm angry, but DAMMIT, I will not be spoken to like some misbehaving child for being concerned about his safety!
He emailed me tonight & said he would be on messenger for a bit if I wanted to log on. So I did & we started talking. He said a couple of things and then just stopped. He wasn't logged out, but just not talking. So I asked him a couple of times if he was there & he didn't answer. I was sure it was a glitch with the internet, but it still sort of scares you. It's like the phone ringing in the middle of the night. You feel your heart race and even after you find out it's a wrong number, you are still scared. So I said "are you alright?'
He still didn't answer.
I emailed him and was trying to be normal, telling him what I did today & how my workouts were going, but at the end I said "email me or call as soon as you can so I know you are ok.
I got an email back from him chewing me out for "taking the worst possible path"
Then he said "Kerry - if I could call you, I wouldn't be on the damn internet."
I just replied that I was going to go & leave him alone, then I went & stood in the shower & cried for 15 minutes.
Asshole
I love him, but he can be such an asshole
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
panthro:
that is definately a tough conversation. but from experience, if he is in a mood over there, or someone has him all pissed off it's not like he can start arguing with people in his unit. unfortunately, the only person he can take it out on is you. which is still wrong, but sometimes unavoidable. hopefully in the next few days he will be in a better mood and apologize.
kerr41:
Thanks for the comments guys. I'm still a little pissed about the whole thing. I'm trying to be understanding and ignore it. But I do think I'll just leave him alone for a bit. When he wants to talk, he will email me or call. I can't let myself stew about it. I think he knows he's safe, so he gets irritated when I worry, but I just wish he would think about what it's like not knowing from day to day where he is, or what's happening.