juniper

I'm repeating myself. . .

Yo me muero de gozo cuando el me mira
y me vuelvo jalea cuando suspira
Si me echa flores
siento el corazoncito morir de amores
Por que tiene unos ojillos
que me miran entornados
muy gachones y muy pillos
muy pillos, muy pillos
que me miran entornados
Y me dicen; ay! lucero,
que por esa personita
me derrito yo y...
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I dreamt last night that I has all these nasty white pustules like the plague all over my face. The dream book I have says that means I worry about my self image, or how others see me. . .
I'm caught in this molasses thick state of awe and anxiousness. I feel like a ghost.
I can't grasp what I've lost, I don't know...
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Here comes the rain again. . .
I've just been hit with an old truth. I'm an outcast, in so many ways.
"You don't give anything" "You shut yourself up" "You don't let anyone in"
This is what I am. I think I have come to terms with it most times, but I haven't come to terms with the effects I make on my life....
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Today I was looking on the internet for an old friend, and found that he had died last year.
His name was Ian.
He had a problem with drugs, alcohol, meth, heroine, you name it. He was a crazy loud mouth punk rocker. He had a green mohawk, he was rebellious, he cut himself up, skipped school, drank 40's with bums, slept under bridges, made...
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Dear Duane, creepy security guard who works in my building,
Please stop verbally noticing everything about my appearance. It makes me ill to know that everytime you see me you are imagining me naked. Yes I cut my hair, yes this skirt would go better with the boots, yes I'm wearing a fucking color today. Get a fucking life.
Please stop harassing all women, including...
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Hello lovelies!
My man Morphisto is on tour again with these freaks (see below) If you are almost anywhere on the west coast then you should go see them perform!



SORIAH
Performance Artists Without Borders Tour, June 2006



Members:
Soriah: vocals, organ
Lana Guerra: homemade analog synthesizers
Noah Mickens: metal percussion, vocals
Ryan Olson: synthesizers

This June, ritualist and throat singer Soriah joins forces with...
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The Journey

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice--
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers...
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I stole this idea from Hellfaerie

7 things......

7 Things to do before I die
- Hike the entire Pacific Crest Trail
- Publish a book (or 2 or 23!)
- Live in a fully sustainable home
- Learn to survive alone in the wilderness
- Travel to everyplace I want (so many, too many to list)
- Speak French, Italian, Mandarin, Spanish, Japanese, and...
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Somehow I wasn't paying attention for too long. The LCD on my laptop went black. And I got removed from the girls group. Take me back! I'll give you chocolate and flowers and share all my dirty secrets!

so many things to say, but I don't want to say them, so. . .

You are the melting men
You are the situation
There is no time to breathe
And yet one single breath
Leads to an insatiable desire
Of suicide...in sex

So many blazing orchids
Burning in your throat
Making you choke
Making you sigh
Sigh in tiny deaths

So melt!
My lover,...
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