It's been a very long time since I blogged about anything really. No particular reason, just lazy I guess.
This is my second full year back at school, it's very much a love hate relationship. I'm a broadcast major and I love my major classes, but as is very typical of me I suck with the core classes. They just really annoy me. But on the up side, I'm now running the school's new student broadcast studio and it keeps me on my feet.
My biggest struggle, though, are the same issues that made me drop out in the first place. Lack of confidence, social awkwardness, and a severe case of A.D.D. One of my biggest complaints that crops up from time to time is comparing myself with other people. I'm the sort of person that (this I think is my A.D.D.) likes everything. So I'm constantly learning little tidbits of all sorts of different things at one time, never being able to devote enough time to one subject to really master it. And while most of the time this serves me well, other times I see things that other people are doing e.g. Photography, or Video that just blows my mind, and I all the sudden feel inadequate.
I don't really mean this to sound whiny, and I really am a very joyful human being for the most part. It's just been one of those weeks. So I'm in one of my (this may sound a wee bit arrogant) I'm-not-so-great-as-I-like-to-think-I-am, moments.
That's enough for my little bitch-fest.
As always, I'm continuing my ever-going pursuit of "who in the hell I am", and to better myself. I recently decided that I need a little more discipline in my life and so I've started swimming like I used to when I was younger and bought a weight set.
The goal? To become a sexy-ass mutha-fucka!
Here's to seeing how long I keep it up.
Current reading list:
DV Rebel by Stu Maschwitz
In The Blink of a Eye by Walter Murch
An Experiment on Criticism by C.S. Lewis- which I've been reading on and off for many months now
A biography of Benjamin Franklin
and my pile of books keeps growing at an exponential rate.
This is my second full year back at school, it's very much a love hate relationship. I'm a broadcast major and I love my major classes, but as is very typical of me I suck with the core classes. They just really annoy me. But on the up side, I'm now running the school's new student broadcast studio and it keeps me on my feet.
My biggest struggle, though, are the same issues that made me drop out in the first place. Lack of confidence, social awkwardness, and a severe case of A.D.D. One of my biggest complaints that crops up from time to time is comparing myself with other people. I'm the sort of person that (this I think is my A.D.D.) likes everything. So I'm constantly learning little tidbits of all sorts of different things at one time, never being able to devote enough time to one subject to really master it. And while most of the time this serves me well, other times I see things that other people are doing e.g. Photography, or Video that just blows my mind, and I all the sudden feel inadequate.
I don't really mean this to sound whiny, and I really am a very joyful human being for the most part. It's just been one of those weeks. So I'm in one of my (this may sound a wee bit arrogant) I'm-not-so-great-as-I-like-to-think-I-am, moments.
That's enough for my little bitch-fest.
As always, I'm continuing my ever-going pursuit of "who in the hell I am", and to better myself. I recently decided that I need a little more discipline in my life and so I've started swimming like I used to when I was younger and bought a weight set.
The goal? To become a sexy-ass mutha-fucka!
Here's to seeing how long I keep it up.
Current reading list:
DV Rebel by Stu Maschwitz
In The Blink of a Eye by Walter Murch
An Experiment on Criticism by C.S. Lewis- which I've been reading on and off for many months now
A biography of Benjamin Franklin
and my pile of books keeps growing at an exponential rate.
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
pandie:
Hi new friend, how goes it??
dierdre:
I think being socially awkward is part of being an artist. Break a leg with that swimming awesome stuff. :3