The past week or so I have really woke up and smelt the roses and realized how amazing and epic my life is, everything is starting to make sense now in terms of where I should be and what I should be doing and the people I should be spending my time with. I was in a situation where I denied who I was and should not of done that, I compromised myself when I didnt have to and I only have myself to blame for that! But a good hard existential slap in the face will wake you up big time, and I am glad for the way everything has happened...
If everything had gone ahead (as it was planned a month ago) then today would of been my last day here in my hometown and tomorrow I would of been off to start a new life by the sea with the person who I thought I was going to be spending the rest of my life with, certain things have come to pass, me and her were not to be and although there was heartache and much pain at first I can now see that it was all for the best because although I lost a relationship I got back something else... My sense of who I am, my strength and my life, which is far more important because I have realized I dont want to change those things.
I almost gave up being close to my friends, my family, a good job, my place in a music scene I have worked hard to attain, and so many other things. I want to be somewhere else doing something else eventually and really spread my wings, but I was not ready to do that yet. I am going to do that but when I do it will be on my terms and the way I want and without any compromise.
So, I regret nothing, I dont wish I could change anything, and once again I am starting to feel content with the potential to stare happiness right in the face.
Epic
If everything had gone ahead (as it was planned a month ago) then today would of been my last day here in my hometown and tomorrow I would of been off to start a new life by the sea with the person who I thought I was going to be spending the rest of my life with, certain things have come to pass, me and her were not to be and although there was heartache and much pain at first I can now see that it was all for the best because although I lost a relationship I got back something else... My sense of who I am, my strength and my life, which is far more important because I have realized I dont want to change those things.
I almost gave up being close to my friends, my family, a good job, my place in a music scene I have worked hard to attain, and so many other things. I want to be somewhere else doing something else eventually and really spread my wings, but I was not ready to do that yet. I am going to do that but when I do it will be on my terms and the way I want and without any compromise.
So, I regret nothing, I dont wish I could change anything, and once again I am starting to feel content with the potential to stare happiness right in the face.
Epic