I have been so busy lately!
Been doing some early christmas shopping, i am not sure if ill brave it and go out during black friday! Im sure its a lot of fun but im not a morning person, by the time id make it out there the stuff i want would be gone! haha
Im still having a hard time with my own sexuality. I am definitely bisexual, i LOVE women! but ive always been attracted to men as well. Lately though.. well.. really in the last year or so, ive found myself more attracted to women and less to men. Is this a phase? or a new chapter in my life? im not sure. It is definitely confusing though. I have 2 boys. I am afraid how it could effect them if i come to the conclusion of being a lesbian? of course it wouldnt effect them immediately as they are 4 and 1 years old., I come from a semi-small city, definitely southern. though there are lesbians/gay people there its a little rare to come across them. so i want to raise them there, because the people are so nice and friendly. I grew up a military brat so living in big cities and then moving to a small city in the south was refreshing.. id like that for them. to be able to go fishing and hunting and ride 4 wheelers etc . yknow?
I'm one to think about others before myself. I hear this a lot from others, it does make me worried that i may really be a lesbian, but so i dont disappoint others, or hurt them. Its something i may just keep a secret for a life time. Sometimes i think its unfair, and other times i think "how many women in the years past have done this? they had a decent life. maybe not perfect, but they had a life full of people who loved them and that they loved and thats more than you can ask for..." right?
anyhow thats it for now ttyl
Been doing some early christmas shopping, i am not sure if ill brave it and go out during black friday! Im sure its a lot of fun but im not a morning person, by the time id make it out there the stuff i want would be gone! haha
Im still having a hard time with my own sexuality. I am definitely bisexual, i LOVE women! but ive always been attracted to men as well. Lately though.. well.. really in the last year or so, ive found myself more attracted to women and less to men. Is this a phase? or a new chapter in my life? im not sure. It is definitely confusing though. I have 2 boys. I am afraid how it could effect them if i come to the conclusion of being a lesbian? of course it wouldnt effect them immediately as they are 4 and 1 years old., I come from a semi-small city, definitely southern. though there are lesbians/gay people there its a little rare to come across them. so i want to raise them there, because the people are so nice and friendly. I grew up a military brat so living in big cities and then moving to a small city in the south was refreshing.. id like that for them. to be able to go fishing and hunting and ride 4 wheelers etc . yknow?
I'm one to think about others before myself. I hear this a lot from others, it does make me worried that i may really be a lesbian, but so i dont disappoint others, or hurt them. Its something i may just keep a secret for a life time. Sometimes i think its unfair, and other times i think "how many women in the years past have done this? they had a decent life. maybe not perfect, but they had a life full of people who loved them and that they loved and thats more than you can ask for..." right?
anyhow thats it for now ttyl