Nothing really exciting happened today. Went to the mall Saturday. I needed something to do at work, so I bought an old gameboy color and Pokemon Gold for $20 at the mall.
Yes...I am playing Pokemon...
and it's addicting.
I am such a fucking geek.
There is something kinda on my mind, and this is the only place I can talk about it, since I only physically know one person on this site...
No one seems happy about Zefer and I.
Everyone I ask is like "well...she's ok...but I don't know, I just don't like her."
I don't know what to think...
I mean, I do like her, I enjoy her company...
but deep inside, for some fucked up reason...I have this sick, nagging feeling that it won't work out well...
Last time she was back from school she had a boyfriend...
but that didn't stop us from having sex, or from her and Mike having sex. (Meaning she cheated on the dude with not one, but two people)
Part of me wants to believe that she wouldn't do that to me, knowing that I wouldn't take it well at all (as in someone would get hurt...most likely me)
but the pessimistic self loathing part of me...well, we all get the idea.
It believes that this is just going to lead to me getting fucked up again, as usual.
I dunno...maybe a certain someone is right about her (you know who you are...seeing as you are the only person on this site who KNOWS me more than anyone...)
but I REALLY want to believe that it will be different...
I guess the only thing to do is roll with it, and see what happens.
If it explodes in my face, I'm sure I'll survive...I always do.
And if it doesn't...so be it.
To sound cliche and lame, only time will tell.
-KOS
Yes...I am playing Pokemon...
and it's addicting.
I am such a fucking geek.
There is something kinda on my mind, and this is the only place I can talk about it, since I only physically know one person on this site...
No one seems happy about Zefer and I.
Everyone I ask is like "well...she's ok...but I don't know, I just don't like her."
I don't know what to think...
I mean, I do like her, I enjoy her company...
but deep inside, for some fucked up reason...I have this sick, nagging feeling that it won't work out well...
Last time she was back from school she had a boyfriend...
but that didn't stop us from having sex, or from her and Mike having sex. (Meaning she cheated on the dude with not one, but two people)
Part of me wants to believe that she wouldn't do that to me, knowing that I wouldn't take it well at all (as in someone would get hurt...most likely me)
but the pessimistic self loathing part of me...well, we all get the idea.
It believes that this is just going to lead to me getting fucked up again, as usual.
I dunno...maybe a certain someone is right about her (you know who you are...seeing as you are the only person on this site who KNOWS me more than anyone...)
but I REALLY want to believe that it will be different...
I guess the only thing to do is roll with it, and see what happens.
If it explodes in my face, I'm sure I'll survive...I always do.
And if it doesn't...so be it.
To sound cliche and lame, only time will tell.
-KOS
On the bright side, my geekiness seems to grow on a daily basis. And I also have a game boy colour that I carry around in my bag with me all the time. Its purple.