Well, I just felt like doing a rant blog where the community that will read it won't be anyone I personally know. I'm getting pretty sick of my friends, or so called friends. I tried to have a Halloween party. Something just to chill out, watch movies, drink and have fun. People just bailed out, even when they said they were going to hang out with me that night. Now, the party is pretty muc hruined because no one is going to show up.
It wouldn't be so bad if this was a first time or one of very few times, but it happens all the time. I always try to make plans and go out and hang out and so forth. People always back out, make up shitty excuses, and just give me a bunch of bullshit. Many of my birthdays have been the same. People making shitty excuses not to come. I used to believe them, until I started seeing through their shit. I often find myself alone on my own birthday or only one person shows up. ((Which I am very grateful to that person and have NO problems with them)) It's just getting to my wits end. I really need to find new and better friends.
There are actually some people at work who are honestly trying to make it. If they can't, it's for an honest and legit reason. If they can't, they are at least making the effort and actually want to be there. It's the thought that counts and those people are fucking amazing. The sad thing about that is I have only been at this new job for a little over half a year and people I have known for that short of time or shorter ARE MORE LOYAL THAN PEOPLE I HAVE KNOWN FOR YEARS.
I am not trying to throw myself a pity party. I know there are many others out there that have it worse than me. People who have no friends, can't even throw a party and are far worse off than I am. I simply needed to rant. This shit is getting really old. I'm going to stop putting for so much effort for these assholes when they won't do the same for me.