I dont even know how I feel anymore.
I have always felt, that in terms of any self medicated or self depricating ~disease, if you openly admit you have it, then you really dont, and youre just putting it on, because if you know you have it, then what is stopping you from trying to fix it.
But I feel like I am becoming an alcoholic, and I feel constantly depressed.
I am drunk pretty much every day by 1pm.
I am SO far behind on my uni work
one of my exs is constantly fucking with my head and I really fucking hate her, I did so much for her, and this is what I get.
My friends are dissipating because of all of the above and I am getting to the point where I am past fucking caring.
I have always felt, that in terms of any self medicated or self depricating ~disease, if you openly admit you have it, then you really dont, and youre just putting it on, because if you know you have it, then what is stopping you from trying to fix it.
But I feel like I am becoming an alcoholic, and I feel constantly depressed.
I am drunk pretty much every day by 1pm.
I am SO far behind on my uni work
one of my exs is constantly fucking with my head and I really fucking hate her, I did so much for her, and this is what I get.
My friends are dissipating because of all of the above and I am getting to the point where I am past fucking caring.
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Many alcoholics are simply self-medicating for larger mental health issues like anxiety, depression, or bi-polar disorder (like my sister did for many years). If you feel the need to drink so much, then you may be battling a larger mental health issue. The stigma's that used that used to exist on people with mental health disorders have significantly declined as the medical science has become more and more concrete about their existence and the ability to overcome them with simple medication or through support groups.
I hope you find what you need to overcome your struggles.
(Drinking is not a problem itself, I love a good beer, and like to get drunk every now and then with my friends. But compulsively drinking or drinking on a regular basis to escape our pain is a sign that you may need help)