greybush

Why do I do the things that I do? I really wish I could answer that.

Oh well.
Tonight I'm really not in any mood to be putting alot of thought into that question....

I think that I need some positivity in my life. Like really.
And maybe a bit more in my posts.
And pictures.

Yeah, Thats the ticket, more pictures.

Watch this space.

I love how the happiness of everyone in my life is dependant on me.

Like really, you've gotta be kidding me. On a good day I can't get my own shit together, how in the world am I supposed to be responsible for all of theirs?

At my age, I really shouldn't be dealing with this kinda crap on a regular basis, should I?

Hmmm.
Don't want to get outta bed today.

Don't think I will..

Do any of us ever really change?

I don't mean our hair or our clothes, Im talking about deep down, in the core of who we are.

Can we truly cast off our sins?
Dare we hope for the ghosts of the past to stay dead?

I'd like to think we can. If not, where can we possibly we go from here?

"Thanksgiving".

I'm still not sure just how I feel about this particular holiday.

Lets ignore the vegetarian in me for a moment & not get into how the annual thanksgiving turkey genocide is sickeningly similar to what the arriving pilgrims did to the native people.

Nope. Not doin it.
My whole issue is about the giving "thanks" part of the holiday. How many of us...
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I really want one.

Seriously.

https://slapchop.com/ver20/index.asp

Well, I'm back.

Its been almost 9 full months since my membership ran out & feels good to be able to afford things like this again.

I don't even know what else to say right now, its good to be back.

There will be more to come later I'm sure...

Happy fucking new year.

Bah.


I love all this nonsense about starting off the new year so much better than the last.
About how whatever way you celebrate it will somehow dictate how the comming year will unfold.

If thats true, well, I'm fucked.
Really fucked.

Not only did I end up working an 11 hour day starting at 7am, but I was sick as...
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Why is it that it seems to take nothing short of personal catastrophe in our lives to light that proverbial fire under our asses?

We race thru a darkness of our own making, just following the light at the end, never once stopping to look around and enjoy the simplest of things.
Then once-in-awhile something happens to make you look at whats going on and...
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So I did it.

I ignored everyone in my life who kept telling me it was stupid or a waste of time & I went.

The best part is that I don't even know if, in the end, it did any good at all really. Thats life I guess. Its better to be a failure but be happy, rather than be stuck doing some you...
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