greybush

Well that didn't work.

I somehow managed to spend new years eve alone, again.
To make it better, the girl I care about more than anything in the world left me.

I"m not eating or sleeping.

I don't know what to do.

I'm a mess & its not getting any better.

I can't believe another has ended. I think it seems so long now because so damn much has happened. In the past 2 years I've lost:

My grandmother
My Dog
My Car
My job (of 9 years)

They say its a clean slate & that everything can change on a new years day.


Fingers crossed.

Two more days.. I can make it.

Ahhhh Christmas, what a glorious time to be working retail.

I'm gonna need therapy after all this is done!

Today is gonna be a better day.
It has to be.

I,ve decided that I'm taking a vacation from the human race today, come hell or high water.

My phone is turned off & i'm gonna install Windows 7, so my computer will be offline too for awhile.

Gonna make a pot of coffee, listen to records & read while I wait.
I think today will be a good day.

Nothing makes sense anymore & I hate it.

Why do I have to be constantly frustrated?
The worst part is that I blame myself.



I think I need a vacation.

It all happens so quickly.

Everything changes in that one little moment. It seems like it takes forever.

Time & sound have no effect, they're inconsquential.

All it takes is a few little words and everything changes forever.