it's funny how much emotion can be lost in one person. lost completly.look at yer side that's all you'll remember of me. next time you want to die don't ever remember my number. call the love for chocolate.
i have to say i suppose i know why everytime there is me it's only because there is something else. i know that all that is jumbled is because of others. yet i sort it out. call it love. call it a therapist. call it war. but just remember to call them. i think it's a beautiful thing.
brazil...hmmmm not sure about my thoughts on...
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brazil...hmmmm not sure about my thoughts on...
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how come your always allowed to fall back on me when i'm not part of your life. yet when i need someone i would rather die than call you. though i'd like if you cared. but you don't because you don'tthink. so go get someone else please. fall on them because it hurts when you fall on me.
dusty:
i wasn't trying to fall on you i'm sorry.
It was Don Delillo, whiskey neat,
And a blinking midnight clock
Speakers on a TV stand
Just a turntable to watch
Only smoke came out our mouths
On all those hooded sweatshirt walks
We were a stroke of luck
We were a gold mine that gutted us
And from the sidelines you'd see me run
Until I'm out of breath
Living the good life, I...
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love is a hardplace. kill yourself and end it now.
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dusty:
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koleeta:
hmm. I was considering that option...
i can tell she's depressed. i got a tattoo. does this top it off. in a sense it is for you but much more for me. bright eyes made me think. do i want to be that depressed kid again. conner with so much emotion. wow i've been there. that shit was crazy. but now i don't feel so alive without that crazy emotion. we...
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The distance and
my hearts to sand
flowing through the hourglass
Time to let go
of all we know
and break our hearts in stride
I need you now
more like yesterday
the last day I could see you smile
for the last time
turn out the lights
my life on standby
So standby and watch
this fall away and fall apart
Just say that...
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my hearts to sand
flowing through the hourglass
Time to let go
of all we know
and break our hearts in stride
I need you now
more like yesterday
the last day I could see you smile
for the last time
turn out the lights
my life on standby
So standby and watch
this fall away and fall apart
Just say that...
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this morning i got up because i can't sleep. i've been sitting in the living room with my bestfriends. we just sang back street boys which came out of my mouth i do not know where from.i am amazing.
dusty:
yup you sure as hell are arent you?
TODAY I BOUGHT A NEW DIGITAL CAMERA. THE THING IS AMAZING LET ME TELL YOU. THEN THE NEXT DAY MY COMPUTER BROKE SO I WENT AND BOUGHT A NEW ONE. I HAVE ALL THESE NEW THINGS I FEEL SO TECH. NOW I JUST GOTTA FIGURE OUT HOW TO USE ALL THIS AMAZING STUFF. P.S. I'M EXTREMLY HAPPY. I'M GOING HOME IN A WEEK AND I'M...
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prettyb0y:
Yay for going home. 
I lost the battery for my digital camera. I'm hoping to find a replacement battery and to not have to buy a new one.
I lost the battery for my digital camera. I'm hoping to find a replacement battery and to not have to buy a new one.today i officially ate shit on my bike on the muni track. but it made me all bloody and tuff for my trek home. i think both my wrists are broken.
well well well fucking ally...looks like your life is heading in a most positive direction...looks like all those times you didn't want to smoke weed were saved for your heroin use...dang you are just too fucking cool for everyone but yourself.
and yes, i felt that pang of fucking hurt reading your last journal entry. so you hurt me, i hope that you are happy about that...and yes, you not saying hello hurt my feelings too.
there never was any chocolate milk...just a fantasy in my head. fantasy is all i know because i don't know how to live in reality.
i'm so sad right now. my heart hurts for me. and it hurts for you too. i don't understand why things need to be this way. but it all makes perfect sense.
i might be crazy, but you are an asshole and a name dropper and now a druggie lol.
i hope you find happiness because deep down you are just as lost and as scared as i am about life, you just know how to hide it better.
but that is funny too, because you think you are hiding it, but people can see through you.
and by the way, i don't think of you when i see my hearts. all it is is a cool idea that you inspired. and why the hell would i want to think of you when i look at them anyways??? the hearts are broken, as in the times where you really fucking tore me a new one.
but don't worry, i give you credit when people asked how they came about.
have a good life allyson.