aarrrrggghhh. i have not had a good day. i will not go into the reasons for i wouldn't want to drag any one else into my own personal bullshit.
that's the thing w/ these online journals. i have so much to say, and so much to let out @ any given moment, but i never know how much of myself i can, or should, put out there. it's kinda like just putting my soul out there to hang in the balance. i don't know how safe that is. i have such a problem letting people in after so many years of getting fucking burned time and time again. i used to trust every one that came into my life until they gave me reson not to. now, i don't trust anyone until they prove to me that they are absolutley fucking worthy. do i have problems???
that's the thing w/ these online journals. i have so much to say, and so much to let out @ any given moment, but i never know how much of myself i can, or should, put out there. it's kinda like just putting my soul out there to hang in the balance. i don't know how safe that is. i have such a problem letting people in after so many years of getting fucking burned time and time again. i used to trust every one that came into my life until they gave me reson not to. now, i don't trust anyone until they prove to me that they are absolutley fucking worthy. do i have problems???
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i hope you work past the trust issues... that sounds lonely.
have a great weekend