So, I'm coming to conclusions about how to deal with my anger towards my place of work and even came up with a wonderful analogy.
The bullshit, lies, hypocrisy, patronisation at work is like a steam roller. Up to now, I've been doing my very best to stop it, by standing in front of it and pushing back. Obviously this is not working. The only alternative I could see was to jump on board the steam roller with the other scum bags, but that would take me in the opposite direction to what I where to go and I thought I'd rather fall and get crushed than have that happen. Now, however, I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel on the other side of the steam roller and I'm thinking, I can't keep pushing now. One slip is all it takes and it's all over for me, so instead I'm thinking - what would I do if I was face to face with a real steam roller and wanted to get past it?
I'd step to the side and let it roll past, then carry on my merry way. So that's what I'm going to do!
The bullshit, lies, hypocrisy, patronisation at work is like a steam roller. Up to now, I've been doing my very best to stop it, by standing in front of it and pushing back. Obviously this is not working. The only alternative I could see was to jump on board the steam roller with the other scum bags, but that would take me in the opposite direction to what I where to go and I thought I'd rather fall and get crushed than have that happen. Now, however, I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel on the other side of the steam roller and I'm thinking, I can't keep pushing now. One slip is all it takes and it's all over for me, so instead I'm thinking - what would I do if I was face to face with a real steam roller and wanted to get past it?
I'd step to the side and let it roll past, then carry on my merry way. So that's what I'm going to do!
I could talk for DAYS about it. hehe.
After five years of trying to make it work, I'm done. It's positive really though, I'll be free to totally change things!