I dont know what to think... I want to believe he tells me everything he has to. But I get so insecure. Its hard for me to trust men. He was there when i needed him and he is one of my best friends. But Ive never physically met him...thats the kicker. We have known each other for 4 years. A lot has happened since then. he knows so much about me and my family...but that is beyond the point.
He has so many girl friends. Who is to say that he doesnt treat his other friends the same exact way. I just get scared. We talk every night and it seems no matter what i can talk to him about everything...everything but the insecurity i have between me and him.
Im not dating and I guess you could say I have been waiting til the day me and him meet. Which is stupid but I guess its my way of sabotaging any bit of happiness I suppose I psychologically believe I do not deserve.
I guess it boils down to the fact that i need to learn how to trust and until I meet David I guess I won't know for sure. He does however intend to move here next year. Maybe then I will know what to think.
He has so many girl friends. Who is to say that he doesnt treat his other friends the same exact way. I just get scared. We talk every night and it seems no matter what i can talk to him about everything...everything but the insecurity i have between me and him.
Im not dating and I guess you could say I have been waiting til the day me and him meet. Which is stupid but I guess its my way of sabotaging any bit of happiness I suppose I psychologically believe I do not deserve.
I guess it boils down to the fact that i need to learn how to trust and until I meet David I guess I won't know for sure. He does however intend to move here next year. Maybe then I will know what to think.