I find that I'm often an intense dreamer. I dream and fantasize about everything. I find it comforting. I find it helps me to keep pushing onward despite thoughts of the opposite. I find I'm a very spiritual and magical individual. Anything extremely important to me revolves around that. Even things like having kids, or falling in love with someone...all have a magical sense to them all for me. I'm unique in that way I guess. I think a lot differently than most people do. It's what drew me into discovering Wicca I think. It makes me perceive things in ways no one really tends to see them as such. It also tends to isolate me I think. I was watching an episode from Star Trek TNG called "The Inner Light", and it just brought on these thoughts about having children with someone. I started thinking what it would be like to have a daughter, or son. Just another dream. There's a moment in the episode where Picard starts playing a song with a flute. That song is very vibrant in my mind right now. Just repeating over and over. It too has a very spiritual and magical meaning to me. Can't really explain it any further than that, just that's the way I feel. A lot of sighing tonight as I'm missing a lot of old and long since lost friends. It's depressing, but I'm muddling though it with difficulty.