I've missed being on the site and I haven't read anything that's been going on. I've been dealing with all of these changes and just haven't spent any time on the internet this month except to pay the occasional bill. I've also re-installed all my old games on my computer. So I'm spending a bunch of time playing Starcraft, Doom 3, Half Life, Black and White, Bejeweled 2, (I suck at that game) and my new favorite, Tradewinds 3. I've also been playing Frets on Fire which is a kickass Guitar Hero clone for PC. I've caught the occasional set here and seen some good ones and a bunch of uninteresting ones. But I haven't even read so much as an article lately (except for one by Will Wheaton.) Maybe now that I'm a little more grounded, I'll be around a little more. I wrote all this at work one day this week after a major melt down. I'm feeling much better now. . .
Life 2.0
Well, we all have a second life after stage one is complete. For some college is the divider, a death, birth of a child, a marriage, a divorce. Life changes come and go and you probably look back on these changes as sections of your life. Your time on Earth; broken up into chunks for easy reference and memory. Works for me. And now I've started a new chapter. If I were to make sections of my life based on the preceding examples, I'd be into life 6.0 by now. My most recent change is pretty extreme, so I'll call all that happened before this month "Life 1.0" and say that I'm beginning "Life 2.0" now.
I've moved a long way from all that has been home to me for over 30 years. As soon as I made the plans to move to Florida to start a future with Marcy, The closer it got, the more I was looking forward to it. I'm not just changing location. I'm changing careers at the same time. PLUS I have 2 kids in Atlanta that I must take special care to make myself available for. So all this has transpired and I'm working on getting settled into my new job, new apartment, and new day to day life with my girlfriend. It's more than rocked my world; it's rocked my psyche as well.
There's a lot of adjusting taking place and more to come, hopefully I'll settle down in the next few weeks. It's just a matter of finding my place in the new space. I'm not myself yet, but I'm getting closer to who I am. It's easy to say, "Just be yourself!" but in my opinion, being yourself requires a comfort level that's different for everyone. For me, I've started going back to some of the hobbies and pastimes that make up my personality. I refuse to rely on my girlfriend's lifestyle to dictate my own, even though the temptation is strong. Sometimes I must pull myself away from her and her family to re-center myself and remember what makes me me.
I haven't been in a comic shop in a month. I dropped by one in Atlanta to pick up the recent Cable and Deadpool and the most recent Fell. I don't have a shop on my side of town, and haven't had the time to seek one out yet anyway. Soon, I'll find a place to take all my money and I'll be complaining about it in no time, all the while planning my next visit. -That's me.
I finally put my (mountain) bike back together and took a ride. Apparently, there's a great trail network here in town that I'm looking forward to checking out. Plus a couple greenways (paved trails) for leisure riding, that will allow me to re-acclimate myself to pedaling for two or three hours straight. My hot legs and manly stamina will be in top form in no time. -That's me.
I tuned up a couple guitars that have been stored for months. Played a little guitar. I've been neglecting my uber-chops for over a year. It's going to take some time to get back into shape. God! I used to be such a good guitarist. Now, I'm happy if I can make it through a song. I blame the lack of interesting music for my regression. If I can just avoid joining a classic rock band, I'll be a good guitarist again. -That's me.
Aside from the occasional movie Marcy and I get out to see, I don't actually see many movies anymore. I used to see one or two movies a week and rent about as many. I also used to be into horror movies big time, always looking for the biggest scare I could find and always in search of the movie I just can't watch alone it's so friggin scary! But movies in general have taken a back seat to more easily accessed (free) forms of entertainment (internet porn and video games.) Fortunately, with the summer movies approaching, I'll have plenty to see, and I'll say that they're all great, no matter how bad they are. -That's me.
And the job. I like to work. I like to do well. For many years I feel like I've been getting worse and worse at doing whatever I'm being paid to do. (With the exception of the occasional computer work I get called for.) The problem has been, I have hated my job(s) since I left Wolf Camera. That company set a standard in my eyes that's been tough for any other employer to live up to. I'm glad to say I'm in my new job here in Ocala with Marcy and I'm really excited to enjoy my job again. I get to work with my girlfriend, manage my projects, manage my time, and use my brain. -That's me.
So what does it all mean? That I've found myself in Ocala, FL? Maybe. We're not engaged, and though we both see that as likely, we simply refer to it as a "potential white dress event". That way we don't get in the habit of talking about marriage and weddings before it's time. Mostly it just means this has all been on my mind a while and a little self-therapy is probably prudent at this stage.
Life 2.0
Well, we all have a second life after stage one is complete. For some college is the divider, a death, birth of a child, a marriage, a divorce. Life changes come and go and you probably look back on these changes as sections of your life. Your time on Earth; broken up into chunks for easy reference and memory. Works for me. And now I've started a new chapter. If I were to make sections of my life based on the preceding examples, I'd be into life 6.0 by now. My most recent change is pretty extreme, so I'll call all that happened before this month "Life 1.0" and say that I'm beginning "Life 2.0" now.
I've moved a long way from all that has been home to me for over 30 years. As soon as I made the plans to move to Florida to start a future with Marcy, The closer it got, the more I was looking forward to it. I'm not just changing location. I'm changing careers at the same time. PLUS I have 2 kids in Atlanta that I must take special care to make myself available for. So all this has transpired and I'm working on getting settled into my new job, new apartment, and new day to day life with my girlfriend. It's more than rocked my world; it's rocked my psyche as well.
There's a lot of adjusting taking place and more to come, hopefully I'll settle down in the next few weeks. It's just a matter of finding my place in the new space. I'm not myself yet, but I'm getting closer to who I am. It's easy to say, "Just be yourself!" but in my opinion, being yourself requires a comfort level that's different for everyone. For me, I've started going back to some of the hobbies and pastimes that make up my personality. I refuse to rely on my girlfriend's lifestyle to dictate my own, even though the temptation is strong. Sometimes I must pull myself away from her and her family to re-center myself and remember what makes me me.
I haven't been in a comic shop in a month. I dropped by one in Atlanta to pick up the recent Cable and Deadpool and the most recent Fell. I don't have a shop on my side of town, and haven't had the time to seek one out yet anyway. Soon, I'll find a place to take all my money and I'll be complaining about it in no time, all the while planning my next visit. -That's me.
I finally put my (mountain) bike back together and took a ride. Apparently, there's a great trail network here in town that I'm looking forward to checking out. Plus a couple greenways (paved trails) for leisure riding, that will allow me to re-acclimate myself to pedaling for two or three hours straight. My hot legs and manly stamina will be in top form in no time. -That's me.
I tuned up a couple guitars that have been stored for months. Played a little guitar. I've been neglecting my uber-chops for over a year. It's going to take some time to get back into shape. God! I used to be such a good guitarist. Now, I'm happy if I can make it through a song. I blame the lack of interesting music for my regression. If I can just avoid joining a classic rock band, I'll be a good guitarist again. -That's me.
Aside from the occasional movie Marcy and I get out to see, I don't actually see many movies anymore. I used to see one or two movies a week and rent about as many. I also used to be into horror movies big time, always looking for the biggest scare I could find and always in search of the movie I just can't watch alone it's so friggin scary! But movies in general have taken a back seat to more easily accessed (free) forms of entertainment (internet porn and video games.) Fortunately, with the summer movies approaching, I'll have plenty to see, and I'll say that they're all great, no matter how bad they are. -That's me.
And the job. I like to work. I like to do well. For many years I feel like I've been getting worse and worse at doing whatever I'm being paid to do. (With the exception of the occasional computer work I get called for.) The problem has been, I have hated my job(s) since I left Wolf Camera. That company set a standard in my eyes that's been tough for any other employer to live up to. I'm glad to say I'm in my new job here in Ocala with Marcy and I'm really excited to enjoy my job again. I get to work with my girlfriend, manage my projects, manage my time, and use my brain. -That's me.
So what does it all mean? That I've found myself in Ocala, FL? Maybe. We're not engaged, and though we both see that as likely, we simply refer to it as a "potential white dress event". That way we don't get in the habit of talking about marriage and weddings before it's time. Mostly it just means this has all been on my mind a while and a little self-therapy is probably prudent at this stage.
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comixbookgurl:
Nice pics!
solace:
Sounds like your starting something new that's going to make you really happy. I like the term "potential white dress event." Mind if I steal it?