Wow, what a nutty weekend it has been...Whoever didn't make it out to the Bird totally missed out. Those were a couple of dope ass fucking shows!!! I'm still so psyched about them. Dan the Automator and Prince Paul fucking rocked out so hardcore--and my friend Amy actually got pulled up on stage!! (Lucky bitch... ) Yeah, and K-OS was the shit, too...Haven't had that much fun in a while...It was totally what I needed after all that boyfriend crap--even though the ex boyfriend crap sorta permiated through the shows, too...Oh well.
Speaking of the ex, it's really weird how much more we've been hanging out now that we're broken up. I can't explain it, other than he's pulling his last ditch effort to get me back because as he says, he realizes now that he fucked up and made a big mistake. Well, as much as I am torn, I almost just want to tell him it's too little too late, you know? After all that pain, I don't want to just pretend like it didn't happen and that oops, you made a mistake, let's just kiss and make up. It just doesn't work like that, you know? Dammit....and damn him...I can't help loving him, though. This whole situation just makes me feel so damn frustrated...
Well, fuck it, you know? I am almost at the point where I've expended so much damn emotion and energy into it all that I kinda have this lack of any emotion at all now...I'm like a robot, or something... I don't know which is better--unhappiness, or no emotion at all. For now it seems like the latter of the two is the easiest to handle, so...
Oh, and just so you all know, I really really appreciate everyone who wrote to me. It totally makes a person in a dark place smile, even if just for a moment. So thanks! What I really need right now are friends, and it's nice to know that even though I haven't met most of you in person, you're all still so damn sweet to me. I love you all, you stupid sons of bitches!!!! (Wow, I've really been hanging out with Amy too damn much...)
P.S. Yeah, so I was told that my profile pic looked nothing like me, but I really have no current pictures. So, I attempted a compromise. The current profile pic is still a year or two old, but at least it still kinda looks like me: blond hair (although now it's longer and has dark red on the underside), my big hoop earrings, and a beer in my hand...Yup, that's me alright!
Speaking of the ex, it's really weird how much more we've been hanging out now that we're broken up. I can't explain it, other than he's pulling his last ditch effort to get me back because as he says, he realizes now that he fucked up and made a big mistake. Well, as much as I am torn, I almost just want to tell him it's too little too late, you know? After all that pain, I don't want to just pretend like it didn't happen and that oops, you made a mistake, let's just kiss and make up. It just doesn't work like that, you know? Dammit....and damn him...I can't help loving him, though. This whole situation just makes me feel so damn frustrated...
Well, fuck it, you know? I am almost at the point where I've expended so much damn emotion and energy into it all that I kinda have this lack of any emotion at all now...I'm like a robot, or something... I don't know which is better--unhappiness, or no emotion at all. For now it seems like the latter of the two is the easiest to handle, so...
Oh, and just so you all know, I really really appreciate everyone who wrote to me. It totally makes a person in a dark place smile, even if just for a moment. So thanks! What I really need right now are friends, and it's nice to know that even though I haven't met most of you in person, you're all still so damn sweet to me. I love you all, you stupid sons of bitches!!!! (Wow, I've really been hanging out with Amy too damn much...)
P.S. Yeah, so I was told that my profile pic looked nothing like me, but I really have no current pictures. So, I attempted a compromise. The current profile pic is still a year or two old, but at least it still kinda looks like me: blond hair (although now it's longer and has dark red on the underside), my big hoop earrings, and a beer in my hand...Yup, that's me alright!
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I can use a friend that can let me know when the Bird will be rocking. I like the Bird, GF dont, she prefers Bullwinkles. But I like seeing a good live band every now and again.