so i made it home today..... i spent the last five days in the hospital. depression is not a fun thing to live with. i will admit i did some pretty scary stuff this time, not only cutting my wrists, but putting a razor to my throat, tying a belt around my neck, scary stuff. which is how i wound up going to the hospital,...
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yeah i know...haven't updated the old blog lately. but i figure i sometimes dont have anything to update it with.... my life is kind of boring, i will admit it. yes, i know i should change that, it's complicated. this past weekend was horrible for me, i was very, very, very depressed. i basically spent all of sunday and monday in my room. remember i...
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karamazov30:
Dating is a bitch. But try not to let the past destroy any chance you have for something in the future. Good luck
radeo:
aw dating is hard for everyone i think haha fuck it who needs it get yourself a pup and thats all you need :]
so it is monday. my job is driving me nuts...i have officially decided to begin job hunting. between bosses acting stupid, employees acting stupid, people in my own department acting like children, i can't take it anymore. so, wish me luck, however this process could take awhile given the current economic situation. i am trying to be ambitious at home today, doing some cleaning, some...
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shaine:
after reading that i want to slap your ex wife in the face. how could she do that to someone as great as you! i hate girls.
sienna:
Thanks so much, dearie! 
okay....so i made it to saturday. work just pushed me to the edge this week, at one point i was so stressed and depressed i thought i could end up in the hospital. i didn't, so that was a good thing. so in the interest of the big man's mental health, i took a three day weekend. soooo....i don't go back to work until tuesday...
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saveme:
Well. Thank you very much. 
That is very sweet of you. 
I hope you had a wonderful night.
That is very sweet of you. I hope you had a wonderful night.
kornalina:
Thanx soooo much for being niceeeeeeee
okay so today is monday....labor day holiday. i am off on mondays anyway, so what the heck. i got a phone message from my family at 1:30 pm about the cook out they were having at 12:30. i don't think they plan ahead very well...and since i was and still am in my bathrobe, well no cookout for the big man today. work was not...
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bigman316:
thank you very much....we also had our first date in the hospital, she got admitted on saturday night for a bad infection. very sweet huh???
bigman316:
it has been a crappy week at work....i promise to update mr. blog this weekend. 
monday.......i had some very ambitious plans for today. emphasis on had. i wanted to run some errands and then maybe go see a movie. unfortunately i wound up hiding in my bedroom for most of the afternoon. i did finally manage to get up and go to the store, but that is it. i am pissed at myself for not really accomplishing anything, then i...
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_nobody_:
i know how you feel!! i've been feeling this way a very long time too. Now i manage to move myself better, because i finally found my goal, but sometimes (like today) i think too much again and waste my time doing nothing, this is so annoying, i don't know how to stop.
koreilyn:
haha np. glad i could make you laugh.
well, commando is great, but....it's kind of like not wearing a bra. if you don't wear undies from time to time, in the future, your ass will suffer and will sagging. haha. got it keep it "tight" or as firm as i can haha. 
well, commando is great, but....it's kind of like not wearing a bra. if you don't wear undies from time to time, in the future, your ass will suffer and will sagging. haha. got it keep it "tight" or as firm as i can haha.
thought i would shoot out a quick blog. my week has been something like this: work sucks, my life sucks, i have been depressed all week, and that sucks, and it is a week until payday and i am broke, so that also sucks. maybe this blog sucks, i don't know......but that is my life at the moment.
sooooo...... i had a doctor appmt. this afternoon, of the psychiatric type. i am seeing a new, sort of, doctor. because my other doctor changed her schedule to only afternoons, on like, wed, thur, and fri. this doctor has morning appmts that i can go to when i get home from work. ( i work night shift in a hospital) however, this doctor has taken...
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koreilyn:
hope you get better also.
erinya:
i 've seen them already...but i can say that you have very good taste...
i have alot going thru my mind this morning.......maybe too much to even write here. maybe i should try to sort some of the jumbled thoughts and come back later.... we found out at work last night that someone we used to work with suddenly passed away from illness. traci was a joy to work with in security, everyone liked her, now she is just...gone....
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monday, monday, monday.......a day most folks can't stand, and i don't blame anyone for it. however, i am off on mondays, so i have a bit different view than most folks. i have had a good weekend so far, saturday during the day i drove to neighboring west virginia to visit some friends, and be a part of their child's second birthday party. the bad...
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xo