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Right on. Glad you had fun at your show. I ended up at a Kennedy show at a strip club last night. Damn fun.

To answer your question from a ways back, I lived in DC in DC from 98-00. Bad, bad neighborhood. The 9:30 Club was visited on many occasions.

Sounds like you had a great weekend. I just found out that I have tickets to the Pixies in San Fran in September and am too excited for words.

Cursive is coming up... it will be quite a show. Let me know what kind of set they play at the show you attend as it will be occuring much sooner than the one I am attending.

Get outside. Breathe some fresh air. It's spring, god dammit. Now's your chance.

What???

whose the valentine? what are you talking about not commenting on your journal anymore? you are pretty much the one person who i consistently comment to. i hardly spend any time on this sight any more and you are the one person who i keep in contact with pretty much. so there goddamn it!

I lived in DC about five years ago, I think? My duration there was about two years. Then I moved onto Chicago. Have you spent time there?

Also: feel free to vent at your leisure. Certainly not going to bother me.

Well hey if your going to be at the Ottobar hit up goatsgotoell he lives right down there in the area.. either way yeah its fucking easy as pie to find sinc ei been back down there and all, i just screwed up being color blind and all couldnt see a freaking red over hanging thing out front of the place.

Good to hear you were able to live it up this weekend. I lived it up a little too much on Friday... but had a fun Saturday with several friends on the roof of a building in LA and then ate shitloads of candy yesterday. My roommate got a little inebriated, played soccer with the 8-year old neighborhood kid, and accidentally broke our neighbor's window by kicking the ball directly into it. Easter got wild. So you may have this girly calling you back, eh? Pretty cool. The show on Thursday was a lot of fun and I'm hoping to get to a few more this week. We shall see how it all plays out. Nothing really new on my end, unfortunately. A pretty uneventful weekend. Hopefully I will have more to report to you tomorrow. A lot can happen in a night...

hey, any good printer deals at Stapes right now?

p.s. soorry missed yer call...was out of the area...

mmm yeah, i'll try and go see q and not u, i didn't know they were playing

Leo's may have more bruisable egos, but are also very inward looking. You may scrutinize yourself more than you need to. What may seem to you as self-defeatist may be exactly what needs to be re-examined as a source of motivation. Truth be told, everyone is rejected again and again, and everyone falls flat on their face more than a few times. Keep doing that. Eventually something will work out. Statistically, it has to. And you definately don't need a master plan or have to find your calling. Just do things randomly that you would prefer to your current situation. Eventully, you'll have done so much that you'll get a better picture of what you enjoy and desire the most. (And I'm not talking grand, sweeping changes here... Just small ones if needs be.) I don't know. (I really don't.) Just don't allow yourself to get so bogged down in second-guessing yourself that six, ten, fifteen years passes and you say, "Shit! I should've done this when I had the chance, or the freedom to, etc." Most specifically what changes do you want to make? I'm really pretty interested as I have just started really trying to change more than a few of my bad, bad habits and have found that changing something about my current direction will probably be the best impetus. I keep thinking to myself: Quit your job. Change what you eat for breakfast. Find a new favorite town. Buy a new book. Pick up painting. Sell all your belongings. Find a new pair of favorite shoes. Take a trip. Move. Go to school. Cut your hair. Get another tattoo. Ditch your roommate. Find a good boy to date. Start researching your book. Just write something. I just don't know what to do... but I hope it's some of the above. My brain's kinda overactive and hard to reign in most the time.

No more Staples. It's up and on to better things my friend.

What's UFC??

"the ssssh, the bad" is a euphamism i picked up for "the sex." always a plus. i'm going to look up some 'q and not u' just as soon as i can. i'm super tired today. saw the breeders last night and had a blast. got to 'rib' pacey from dawson's creek as he was being a creepy barfly and blocking access to more beer. we discussed his theory of how one could probably write a logrithmic math equation to assess the progression in the spring to summer months that women wear less and less clothing. random.

... not bad, a little vindictive, yes? i say just forget the whole thing happened, you were just confused by emotions that had long been boxed up and ended up presenting themselves in a strange way...

No problem at all. I think I will be able to see Cursive twice as well... possible three times (if I only had the money.) I will not be going to Coachella. There are no ins and outs... huge sweaty crowds... you don't get as close to the band as you'd like... all that jazz. I'm going to be seeing them at a smaller venue in Hollywood. I'm pretty stoked. There some weird two degree seperation between Tim Kasher and I that I'm going to try and work when they're in town. I'd love to meet him. We'll see.

Your girl sounds (despite the accolades) like she's going into this whole thing pretty lukewarm. Let her do her thing -- be patient (I know, it sucks, I have the same impetuous-ness bug) -- and you'll see where it's heading. Either you'll both start to really dig each other in equal quantities, or not. If she acts rash, recall that she is only 18. Remember 18? It sucked. I certainly wasn't even half the human being I am now at 18. A lot happens in the 6-7 years of your early twenties. Am I rambling? I think perhaps I am...

Then again, the ol' circle yes, no or maybe note worked pretty well back then. Go for it.

Hey, listen. Relationships and dating are not supposed to be so anxiety ridden. It always sucks if someone does not reciprocate feelings, but sometimes that happens. Also, sometimes the other person is not so hot at conveying exactly what they are feeling and that anxiety can ultimately hurt what could be a great fledgling relationship. I think you also need to realize that if this girl doesn't work out, there will certainly be more. Relationships are not supposed to be there to rescue you from situations (that turns into co-dependency), but rather as a way to accentuate yourself as you already are and even assist you in becoming a better individual. Never lose you sense of self. Certainly rejection is an ego-slam... but this girl hasn't rejected you at all yet. It seems that you are entering into this relationship expecting that and trying to do everything possible to ensure that that will not happen. Why try? You have her right now. If she at all senses the kind of rejection anxiety that you are feeling, that may plant the seed in her head. Or, it may make you come across and unsure of yourself or even needy. Girls generally don't stick around if they feel like they are not on a level playing field with the person they are dating. Simply, be you. Don't be this-girl's-boyfriend or the-guy-this-girl-seems-to-want-to-date or anything else except yourself. If she doesn't like you, fuck her. If she does, all the better. There are millions of girls out there. I'm sure that in your lifetime you'll find more than a few that fit your mold. Don't put all your eggs in one basket and take a deep breath. If you get caught in the details you'll forget what you were looking for in the first place.

I should take my own advice. I hope the above is not too rambly and make a little sense...

You have to remember... she is a young'n. Not as emotionally mature as you would probably hope for. Give her some time/space/etc. and let her helm that ship for a while.

I've been away as I took Friday off of work and do not have the glorious invention of Internet on my apartment. So, I am completely dependent on my working hours to post, check-in, journal, etc..

I'm quite excited to check out the music. I will let you know my thoughts. (Get your Cursive tickets while you can!)

Ok.. take from me, i'm a total man pimp dog.

No seriously i'm not but really give it like between 2 and 3 days.. its a nice safe amount of time. You want SOME space in the begining.. its not a bad thing if you call, and doesnt make you seem forward at all. BUT once you call man be fucking to the point.. dont do the hey lets hang out stuff, if you like her you make sure its known that you want a freaking date dude.

Women are freaking weird.. they creep me out sometimes because its like they always come at you with this new attack wave or some shit and the dating scene these days is WAY more screwed than in the old days.

atta boy. had to happen one of these years...

woo hoo!! it about time there boyo!! congrats

err... well now normailly i think that age difference is no big deal but usaully that starts after 20 and is resricted to a 15 year age difference. this isnt so bad though. i would say if there is chemistry why fight it. besides you need to get laid right? go for it dude!! weeee.

ha, ha, fucking ha...