just woke up from a nightmare after sleeping for only 2 hours.it's 430 on the west coast and the one person i know is awake right now happens to be on the way to the airport on the east coast with their family and can't talk to me right now...so i'll blog...it was a crazy nightmare which ended with me getting killed in a car crash when i woke up..fucking creepy! anyway, i left a really comfortable bed -although i WAS sweating from my nightmare - came out to the couch where i'm spending the night housesitting at a friends and am now watching porn. i feel much better just watching someone (or a couple of someones) going at it for a while.
i have just come to the realization that even on my worst day, porn makes me feel better. an interesting thing to learn about oneself. this one isnt't even playboy porn - it's girl from b.i.k.i.n.i on hbo so i thought it would be softcore, but then i saw three naked bodies - two girls and a boy, my favorite kind...now there's a girl who has been "kidnapped", and two other girls are stripping her naked and feeling her up. definteily a fantasy of mine...never been with two other girls before...and with no guy around...fun.
i have just come to the realization that even on my worst day, porn makes me feel better. an interesting thing to learn about oneself. this one isnt't even playboy porn - it's girl from b.i.k.i.n.i on hbo so i thought it would be softcore, but then i saw three naked bodies - two girls and a boy, my favorite kind...now there's a girl who has been "kidnapped", and two other girls are stripping her naked and feeling her up. definteily a fantasy of mine...never been with two other girls before...and with no guy around...fun.
after getting dumped, i totally understand the plight of johnny lawrence, the blonde kid, wanting to kick the shit out of daniel-san for stealing elizabeth shue.
i remember texting you the other day, on ANWave and saying, my first relationship is going to suck, lol. It didnt totally suck, but this is hard.
anyway, now I get to go find the suicidegirl of my dreams!