adaire

inconsistent

after years of fighting,
crying,
wishing,
downing pills,
hopping from hospital bed to hospital bed,
therapy,
and heartbreaks
I've finally come to a point where I have
everything I've ever wanted.

why is it that I don't want it anymore?
why is it that I've never felt so alone?

I'm so amazingly happy with everything I have.
my friends are wonderful to me.
my...
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in the cabaret...

honorable
you're completely intolerable.
yet should I mention
you put the mind;
the body at ease?

indeed.

I see no need.
you strut your stuff
and I'll show you mine.
a peep show?
this is my glamour shot.

my boy,
I'll pin you up against the wall.
the curtain closes,
and I see you've got one thing on your mind.

the ride....
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I'm beginning to find my place,
at least for the time being.

My job is going well, most days, and I'm excited that I'll be getting to the point where I'm making a lot of money really soon. I'm improving, gaining recognition, and therefore, gaining a lot more confidence.
It may not be the most glamorous job,
but at least it pays well.

On another...
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