My reel is done MY REEL IS DONE!!! I have been putting off making this monster of a demo reel for myself for almost 2 years ( basically the time with my ex ) And now I am finished in about 3 hours!! I am so damn excited and I might post some of the videos, other than the ones already up, in my videos section. I look forward to sending this out and seeing who bites

What a crazy strange, frustrating and tiring weekend. I am emotionally and physically spent.

I am looking in all the wrong places apparently, I really wonder if online dating sites actually work at least for a decent date and not just some random evening fling...although those are a hell of a good time too.

I am so excited for this

Ok so here I am again, going on 3am at work, probably sleeping on the couch here, waiting...that's all. I really want to go out to Exit and have a few but I am more tired than anything. Just...I don't know anymore...I long to go home to someone, curl up next to someone and relax but alas...that is not my place at the moment. My place is create and learn, grow...appreciate all that I am and be alone. Work...work is my life, my passion and I do love it but what is all of the effort put into a passion or desire without someone around to share it with intimately. I mean I have my amazing friends that also share in my passions and my dreams etc...but it doesn't really have the same effect that it does when you are able to share that intimately in a supportive manner with another. Patience...patience and practice. Keep on keepin on..and so on and so forth. This really is just ramblings, I am quite content with my place in this world at the moment. I am lucky and much better off then some that share the same dreams I do...I am very very lucky but it is not luck. I work hard and I am damn good at what I do in more ways than my employers know...soon enough...soon, it will all come together....

My legs are killing me. I was a dancing machine over the weekend at wedding number 3 for the year. I don't know what got into me, but I danced my ass off and had a blast. Now back to the daily grind, until I go to wedding number 4 on Friday in Memphis. This should be a fun one.

Generally speaking I need to pay more attention. Especially in life....

Ha! Cubs lose and Sox win, I love it! Shit my bad, thinking of wrong game....I am an idiot sometimes.

Lately it seems like, my brain only revolves around two things...One being women, the chase, the flirt, lots of dates lately. And the other is work, work work and film work, personal work theater work. Looking back on the way things shape out to be, I have noticed that it tends two be either work hard or be in a relationship, I very rarely see the two work out together in a symbiotic fashion. I am either really into a relationship and tend to let everything else fall away, become, sometimes, consumed by the relationship. Or there are no girls no anything, hardly ever going out and just working my ass off, trying to make it some where, some how. I guess I am still trying to figure out how to make the two work together and not get lost in either endeavor but keep it all balanced. Just thinking out loud...