A very wise and sexy man once said, "There were never any good old days-- they are today, they are tomorrow-- it's a stupid thing we do cursing tomorrow with sorrow." I need to start thinking like that.

I have been feeling a little down lately. Nothing terrible but I feel so rudderless. Now that the year is beginning to wind down I've been thinking back on it and it just seems like a total waste of time. I didn't do shit. It's not like I was doing a ton before but at least I was having a fucking blast going out all the time, getting f'd up, having a zillion friends and generally being an asshole. I quit my old job in mid March thinking I'd find a better job. It took me till mid June to find any job at all. So I've been working retail since then. I'm wondering if quitting the Warhol was really the best decision. I feel like I do busywork all the time now. I don't expect to find my dream job but it would be nice to find something that at least seems like it has the potential to take me somewhere.
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*spoilers*

Panda_Eyes' older brother got married last weekend. Funtimes were had by all. I couldn't help but think about what it would be like if Scooter and I got married. All those speeches talking about how the bride and groom met. Oh my. What a spectacular story. I mean really it is and it's kind of hilarious. "So Jess had n00dz on this internet porn site..." Hahhaha...amazing. Not something a dad wants to hear about his little girl though.

I got my hair and nails did for the occasion. Nails are sweet....hair....not so much. Antietam is the only person who's done my hair for the past almost 3 years but our schedules didn't match up this time. My roots were pretty gnarly though so I went to a salon because I didn't want to look like a hobo at the wedding. Nobody else fucking understands that I don't want "platinum blonde" hair I want straight PLATINUM hair. Minus the blonde. Sillllver white plzkthxbai. So now it looks like someone pissed on my roots. The...

A very wise and sexy man once said, "There were never any good old days-- they are today, they are tomorrow-- it's a stupid thing we do cursing tomorrow with sorrow." I need to start thinking like that.

I have been feeling a little down lately. Nothing terrible but I feel so rudderless. Now that the year is beginning to wind down I've been thinking back on it and it just seems like a total waste of time. I didn't do shit. It's not like I was doing a ton before but at least I was having a fucking blast going out all the time, getting f'd up, having a zillion friends and generally being an asshole. I quit my old job in mid March thinking I'd find a better job. It took me till mid June to find any job at all. So I've been working retail since then. I'm wondering if quitting the Warhol was really the best decision. I feel like I do busywork all the time now. I don't expect to find my dream job but it would be nice to find something that at least seems like it has the potential to take me somewhere.
Blah Blah Blah

Panda_Eyes' older brother got married last weekend. Funtimes were had by all. I couldn't help but think about what it would be like if Scooter and I got married. All those speeches talking about how the bride and groom met. Oh my. What a spectacular story. I mean really it is and it's kind of hilarious. "So Jess had n00dz on this internet porn site..." Hahhaha...amazing. Not something a dad wants to hear about his little girl though.

I got my hair and nails did for the occasion. Nails are sweet....hair....not so much. Antietam is the only person who's done my hair for the past almost 3 years but our schedules didn't match up this time. My roots were pretty gnarly though so I went to a salon because I didn't want to look like a hobo at the wedding. Nobody else fucking understands that I don't want "platinum blonde" hair I want straight PLATINUM hair. Minus the blonde. Sillllver white plzkthxbai. So now it looks like someone pissed on my roots. The cut is also pretty atrocious. The bangs are waaay shorter than I wanted, and she also cut it into a "shag" ie. I have some kind of choppy Rachel-ish bowl cut that has not been cool since about 1996. Not to mention that these kind of bangs make me look like I'm 5.
Then

I looked at least....15.
vs.
Now

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I'm pretty sure Antietam can mostly fix the color and the bangs will grow out. But still. Wahwahwah. Maybe I'll finally get the balls to chop it all off next time. I am a total nerd for America's Next Top Model -- who else watches??? -- and I really like Samantha's haircut even though I find her rather annoying. Maybe I'll steal it. Did I really just write all that about my hair? Wow.

I'm stoked that it's fall. Fall is by far the best season for the following reasons:
- The chilliness is new so it's not depressing. Everyday when I come home from work I look forward to getting all snorglely and wrapping up with the covers up to my eyeballs.
- The leaves
- The smell of burning leaves and the sound of raking
- Pumpkin everything-- cookies, rolls, pie, coffee
- Cider
- The colors
- Cozy sweaters and tights and boots!
- Halloween, duh.
- Thanksgiving
I rest my case.
Panda_Eyes grew up in the city so he's never gone to the farm to pick out a pumpkin. This is an atrocity and I plan on fixing it soon! The pumpkin picking and subsequent hayride and petting zoo were pretty much the highlight of my childhood!

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Something about Married to the Mob usually rubs me the wrong way but their lookbook for this fall is fucking perfection. If I can't get my hands on that first sweater I'm gonna be very sad. It's already sold out almost everywhere I've looked
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4-- I am not a sneaker person really. I wear ked type things most of the time....but I think I would sell my first born child for those babies.

I have funny stories for you about downstairs neighbors but I'll save those for next time since this blog is already way too long and miserable and cannot be saved.